blissful ignorance

2009-05-08T19:24:00.000+08:00

We’ve, or just I more like, finally started looking for accommodation for the coming Bangkok trip.

The trip that’s in August, which we booked flights for in February.
Hur hur…

The airfare was really such a great deal/steal okay…

Sooo…
It’s down to Arnoma (near Siam area; closer to Chitlom), Asia (super super convenient and cheap but it’s starting to look more and more dank and old) and Somerset Lake Point (which is so pretty! But location wise is only so so).

Just waiting for the rest (actually just 1) to gimme their input so the booking can commence!

Can’t abso-wait for the trip.
Really.
(:

And no,
it’s not wait for trip to be over and Sayonara Senorita.

Stop paranoi-ing.

I feel like I’m becoming more and more blasé.
Am i?

2009-05-08T18:59:00.001+08:00

The problem is this --- I don’t know what I wanna do.
And all I do is keep telling myself, “just go with the flow.”

But there’s only so much flow I can go with, yo.

I’m beginning to detest weekends.

I mean … I still like them cos they mean a break from work. Most times.
(Foresee me slave-driving myself this weekend)

I just detest them cos that’s when I don’t see the other.
And we don’t seem to do much weekend planning.

Cos mostly it’s me who’s free and it don’t swing both ways like that. And we don’t ask “…what are your plans for the weekend…” much either. Used to… but it died a slow death I guess. Heh heh…
You know… Cos personal space is appreciated?

So then it’s the waiting for the work week to begin again.

That’s just crazy, yo.
To be eager to wait for the work week to start I mean.

So yes.
That’s why I’m slowly loathing weekends.
Tragic, but true.

2009-04-24T20:20:00.001+08:00

Pretty much am agreeing with Jo.
That comebacks come to mind after a pretty much long time have passed.
Wasted.

But for me it doesn’t necessarily have to be in the bathroom.
Hur hur.

And I personally find that I’m pretty good at running away from things. And deluding myself.

But my latest attempt at “running away” was a tad out of point cos it seems I didn’t have to any reason to after all. In a good way. I guess.

I really came out of the conversation more confused I suppose. Hur hur.
I’m so bad at it.

It’s all moving slowly, and I’m not complaining.
I see a bit of progression… and finally feel like there’s not much side-stepping like a crab anymore.

I’m still not gonna place much expectations on anything.

ANNALIM says I should put myself first =/
Yes, I know I can’t help everyone but I can try ;)

There’s progress with work too.
As in career-wise.

Although it’s a small jump, and I’ll probably be worked to death…

I’ll just be greatful. I mean… I AM greatful.

Just that everything’s coming with a price.

And with school next year…
It might get tougher.

So there’ll be another meet and greet on Monday.
And I really don’t know what to else to put on my current JD list.
I’m pretty sure I missed out a bunch-ful.

Basically, I’ll just take what I can get man…
And get school over and done with asap and be enslaved.

The week is finally ending.

This weekend should be a good one <3

2009-03-31T19:19:00.002+08:00

You know what, know what, know what...

It's back to school for me, baby.

Yeah.. Still thinking of the fabulousness of N.E.R.D. I am. Le sigh.

So work has pretty much engulfed me. And that hasn't been the only distraction ;)
I'm sure I've said this before.. But again, it'll all keeps gettin better and better.

2009-01-13T18:33:00.000+08:00

I caught stars last week.

Anddd……

They were amazing!!!

Amy has such a lovely, lovely voice.
And they were all so adorable with their stage antics.

I got their signatures too and Amy said she liked my shirt (:

It made my day.

I wish Muse would come again.

2009-01-13T18:32:00.001+08:00

So….
Obviously…
It has been awhile.

Christmas has passed, and so has New Year’s.
What’s coming would be birthdays aplenty and another trip to the neighboring Batam for the previous trip was such a blast – no matter how much of a chore planning and organizing it was.

(And we’ve roped in more people and will be doing more activities this time round)

The horoscope looks promising for Aquarius this year (a holler goes to Gret and Alex) – sans the health part.

And true to its word, I am now clogged up in the nose and sound the part too.
To think it all began when I decided to accompany my sister jogging in the morning. Exercise. Bah.

Anyway, there’s supposed to be a solar and lunar eclipse during the Aquarian month (boo-ya!) so watch out for that!
*Coolness.

The (sort of still) new year…
Sigh~

2008-12-05T17:37:00.003+08:00

A lotta them around me seem to be travelling places.
Literally.

Minnie's going to a medley of places. She's at Houston now (from Spain) and will be heading to Zurich, errr... can't really remember the rest. But it's a LOT of places from now til the new year.

Risca's at BKK now and will be going back Indon after that for her engagement and staying there til the new year.

Jo will be going places too.
Mid-ish next year. Barcelona, Zurich, Bristol, Venice and the like. Exciting!

Bren's going NY.
She keeps going each year cos she says that she's yet to explore it all.
So cute right.

Inky, the NYC lover, be so jealous.

Hur hur...

Mrs. Wayne's gonna be skiing in Feb.
A trip which I passed.

No point getting winter clothes when I RARELY go to cold places. Heh.

So all I have to look forward to would be Phuket (yay!) and Batam for cable-ski.
Which in itself has been such a problematic trip with the fickle-st of people and unforeseen-est of circumstances.

Expectedly, it has been unceremoniously postponed.
To two weeks later.
Sigh~

And now I'll have a not so eventful long weekend.
At least tonight's a foodie night so perhaps it'll cheer me up a tad bit. Lol.

And another super exciting news:
I'll be going for the TWILIGHT PREMIERE on Tuesday!!!

Courtesy of the Grouch.

9 days ahead of ogling and leering at the delicious vampire, Edward Cullen.
Mmmmm....
(:

BODY OF LIES is also a preeettty good/exciting movie.
Leo looks so much better now that's he's lost the whole pretty boy look.

Bleagh.
I'm bored.

Can we leave for food NOW.

2008-12-02T18:12:00.005+08:00

It really does keep eating you up from within.

And you don't know when it ends.

2008-11-27T18:22:00.003+08:00

November's passing in a breeze. So has the year, really.
Lol.

And it didn't really register in my head that I had a lot going on this month and last month, and the past few months actually.

December's not gonna be any different I suppose.

With December comes excitement.

As well as the influx of money (read: early pay/awl/bonus) and the 'out'-flux as well (read: X'mas gift-buying).

Ironically it is also the only month where most friends' birthdays don't fall.
Siblings' birthday (2 of them to boot) don't count.
=/

The past few months have been filled with week after week of birthday celebrations.
Hur hur...

And also tons of time-spending with the bestest of friend and colleagues turned super super fabulous friends.
Actually mostly from work it's the singles who hang out together more.

Haha!

There's also plenty of food in December!

Band dinner on the 5th, seafood dinner at Batam after cable ski and go-karts (whee~) on the 6th, Melt on the 10th.

Dance performances to attend, and that department potluck (I'm just gonna bring brownies and try to make time to bake. Hur hur..)

Then there's our annual X-mas/New Year's party :)

Where the people refuse to charge based on minimun spending and instead insist that we pay 'rent' in addition to drinks expenditure and whatnot.

Saying that normally on a Saturday night they make X amount.
And my ass excretes GOLD.

And not forgetting the opening of Twilight!
Hee hee...

I am a total FAN-pire.
Edward Cullen is so hot.

I've said that before haven't I?
Hmm...
;)

Oh and Risca's getting formally engaged to Yonas in December too.
<3

Yes, the people around me are all tres fabulous.

2008-11-19T10:57:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you can't help but to just feel lonely.

Then you wonder what would be the right next step and right thing to do.

Before you tell yourself to snap out and stay out of it but that loneliness always lingers at the edges, within your reach though.
But when you wanna grab it and chuck it out it, it darts past you so quickly that you miss it and you think you've succeeded and it's gone (and then it surfaces again).

You try again and again til you realise how futile it is.
Until you realise that it's here to stay and you just gotta find a way to deal with it.

And so I reiterate, you then wonder what would be the right thing to do.

2008-11-16T11:22:00.002+08:00

Well Rihanna was a bust.
I might as well have had flung the $150 off a cliff.

A technical glitch that occurred in the opening song which worried us to no end (will it be like this throughout the concert???)..
... marked the beginning of a too short performance which started really late.

But she definitely is a hottie.

On a happier note,
I am not one to be immune from the whole Twilight hoopla.
And absolutely cannot wait for the movie to be out.

Edward Cullen is a definite hottie too.

I know that there's already a copy of the book at home, but I want the hardcover copy!! And copies of the accompanying sequels too..
I have Eclipse, Breaking Dawn and Midnight Sun left to read.

- Or more if Stephenie Meyer churns more out (:

And it doesn't matter/I don't care if they're like categorized under teeny-bopper or whatever.

Edward Cullen = Yummy.

And I hope the Hanas really had a blast :)
Love you all okayyy...
Remember that.

2008-11-03T18:09:00.002+08:00

I've just added a Plurk page to my blog!
*YAYness

It be under the first bar from the left.
More frequent and quick updates there :)

For times when there's simply not enough time for me to compose a lengthy post for thy blog.
<3

2008-11-02T19:24:00.006+08:00

I think I still ultimately don't know what I want in general.

I'm going with the flow....
And that's it.

It's either that, or that I can never make up my mind and am super erratic.

Whatever it is, life is still good.
But I do need more time for myself though...

After the seemingly endless weeks of a packed calendar of events.

Appraisal is over and done with thank gawd.
Not as scary as I thought it'd be and is deffo very very positive!

It's really quite amazing that what I so claim to wanna be in a module for poly to be sorta be the path I am taking.
Slowly bit by bit I am reaching my destination.

*Here's to hoping that I don't jinx it.

And I want more bangs.
Which I'll later can't wait for (the bangs) to grow out.

Oh ya.
How to imbed Plurk in thy blog?
Please tell me if you knowww......

Thanks yew :)

2008-10-29T18:06:00.005+08:00

I have been...

...so so so so very very busy!!!!!!

Since the last post, there was Jo's birthday celebration.
Or to be accurate, celebrationS.

There was a little shindig at Tavistock, and then a party at dblO another day.

After that was probably the terribly missed and utterly glorious Phuket trip.

I'm still slowly trying to recall what's been happening.

There was/were.....

Many jam sessions with the band, preparations for DnD which required alot alot of time, some Haji lane trips, and of course Timbre...

And Josh's birthday where we parrot-ed around... a mini celebration for Angela, screening at the Botanical Gardens... Shawn's birthday.. Planning and the co-ordinating

P.S: For photos go see my FB! (:

And of course the actual DnD day itself.
The four of us worked really really hard and burnt alot of hours for this.
It was so so so fun!

Inky and I promised each other that we'd definitely get bubbly. And we did!
2 bottles of Veuve Clique champagne :)
Mmmmmm....

It was 80s-themed as per requested by our de facto leader who can't seem to get out of the 80s.
Hur hur...

It's great to hear that people enjoyed themselves and that the CEO and his right hand man also congratulated us to say that this was the best DnD they've had so far. :)

The band worked really really hard for this.
They're all made up of our colleagues! And there was some hippity-hop dance going on. Plus the emcee was really really gooodd!!

I felt that the whole thing was too short :(

After the whole shindig was over, Inky and I apparently semi forgot our duties as committee members and headed back to our room (which we booked for our resting pleasure. Hur hur) to change and then head to dblO with a champagne bottle in tow.

Met Jo, Gret and Gillian, downed the champagne, waited for the rest of the guys to reach and headed in.

For like half an hour.

Then we went back to Bar None and then for supper before finally heading back to the hotel 4, 5am-ish. Hur hur...

The next morning only grouch and I woke up for breakfast.
We woke at 8.30am man...

I think my internal clock wakes me up at that time all the time :(

And I also ceased taking photos from then cos I was too stoned to think about it.
So no room photos, no pool and no outing photos. Ho ho...

Background info:
DnD was on a Thursday night and most of us took leave Friday to nua.

We nua-ed and drifted around the WHOLE day.
I swear.

After breakfast, Inky was still snoozing so we went to the pool.
It was drizzling though.. And the pool was eff-ing freezing. So we just hung out at the chairs til 12-ish.

And stayed in the room some more watching South Park and took away lunch from Carl's Jr at Far East.

Supposed to game after checking out, but that didn't work out cos the lan shop was filled up with (stupid) students. Damn them.
So we went over to Boris' and hung by the pool from 4 to 6pm.

And then proceeded to grouch's place til 7.30pm where they continued with their South Park marathon and I with my sleep. HAHA..

Then we picked up Serene and went to have dinner after which we caught Tropic Thunder!!!!

It was a really really loooong day.
And I have to go now for more celebrations.

Grrr...

2008-09-19T18:11:00.001+08:00

So Wednesday was the birthday of the ex-boss.
And the plan was that we were gonna have a surprise dance performance for her.
Had only one rehearsal; which was 4 days before birthday party.

Everything turned out really really fab...
:)

The night started out with me, missing my stop and ending up cabbing to CL to meet them - of which of course, I was late.
Then we quickly got dressed and ready with cool top-hat-looking hats and stockings which we customised as long gloves.

Everything was rushed and last minute...
But I think we pretty much managed to look put together.
Heh heh...

With the birthday gal :) Who received a red beemer convertible as a present from hubby. OMFG.

After the performance, presentation from her hubby to her, and gift-giving, we proceeded to continue the party at the rooftop where typically, more mayhem ensued.
Haha!

There was a little bit of pole action...
And Samia was very on.. (:

And the pre-requisited group photos..
Where the femmes took a photo together first.

Before we took one with the whole (sort-of) group.

And I was also pretty glad that Radhiah decided to come.
Like I've mentioned before, it's not all the time that she gets to go out and have fun. And at least I'll be there to take care of her and ensure she gets home safe.
Sisters after all.
Hur hur...

Then the ex-boss and the hubby had a romantic dance together and not long after, it came time for the singing of a birthday song for Jo!
(How cool is that.. Her birthday is a day after her boss)

And sooo....
They secretly ordered a lambo for her.

And unfortunately the flames can't really be properly seen due to the cam flash.
Grrr....

As the night progressed there was more dancing, the ordering of whatever drinks we desired, and the binge-ing on their amazing, amazing dessert! (There were 2 kinds, but I only tried and only was devoted to one of them)

There was also some dancing on the bar top with the bartenders spraying soda water at us.
They think they're in Coyote Ugly or something. Lol.

It was just absolutely great...
(:

Although it did only leave me with a few hours of sleep before having to get ready for work. I managed to wake up the same time I usually do though.. but I ended up cabbing anyway cos I was really really slow and laggy in getting ready.
Haha...

Next up..
Tales of the birthday of the Jo (:

2008-09-16T17:11:00.003+08:00

All I can say for now is, "kampate" (did I spell that incorrectly?)
and give myself a reassuring pat on the back first.

Whewwww.....

This is the part where I keep 'talking' to myself:
No, no, no...
I am not signing my whole life to it.
It's just a stepping stone.
I'm not a child anymore, I'm not baking decisions on the whim.

Get over it la.

=/
Heh heh...

.catch a Fire.

2008-09-12T11:33:00.002+08:00

I don’t have the habit of self-complimenting myself so much.
In terms of telling myself that I’m so hot and kick-ass blah, blah, blah…

What’s the point right.

It’s not about being pessimistic about me cos I think I’m one of the more optimistic people I know (:
It’s about keeping my ‘hao lian-ness’ in check.
No matter who you are, there will always be someone prettier, smarter, better than you. But I am confident enough in myself ((:
- All about balance, as always.

Anyway, so with all that said, it’s always fab to hear people complimenting you especially when you least expect it.
And you know they’re not trying to get into your good books or whatever. They’re just being matter of fact with you.
Heh heh…
*gloats a bit.

But I think it’s also partly cos now I’m in the ovulating period so my body is giving off the ‘me is attractive’ hormone/chemicals whathaveyou.
Seriously.
All females have that.
Lol.

On a separate note, after plentiful occasions of procrastinating, I have finally booked my tickets for Phuket!
Kept hoping and hoping that the prices would drop cos a month back or so, they were so cheap and then they suddenly rose drastically.
So now that they’ve dipped a tad bit, I’m not gonna risk having them increase again and thus have quickly snapped them up.

Phuket here I come (:

Tonight is Rail Mall night!
And Timbre with the gang afters <3

.be Sedated.

2008-09-08T20:59:00.008+08:00

I woke up Sunday morning with an aching upper body, thinking how did I manage to crap up and sleep the wrong way to wake up to such agony.

And then it all came back to me.
It's all because of the stint at the OC last night.
Heh heh...

Where I carried and man-handled darn heavy tables and whatnot like I used to around a year and a half/two years ago.

Muscle growing in progress.
*growls

And nice to know that people notice you trying to do your best to ensure things go as smoothly as they can, and they compliment you on it.
(:

It was funnnnn...
Worked with Sanjay and Joline again together with the new full-timer Fifi - who was fabbbb! and the ever helpful and cheery Nemal.

Can't say much about the rest la.
One's noob to OC so can't fault him.

The clients were sooo friendly and from meeting their parents, you can immediately tell where they got their nice-ness from.
(:

I think customer service is pretty innate in me cos I fell into it again easily and I really do enjoy interacting and ensuring that they have a good time.

Even that bad bout of rain didn't dampen my spirits much.

Maybe cos then we could see the cock-ful bartenders do some work as they scurried to carry and shift their bar area indoors.
Hur hur...

Lucky that there was no buffet required and all was just butler service all the way.

The bartenders were really really lousy and unhelpful.

Basically our job was to handle the food and perhaps help the bartenders (there were 3 of them, mind you, and a their manager/supervisor) with the drinks but we ended up having to get the drinks ourselves cos other than mixing their (limited) cocktails (read: 3 types only), they didn't seem too keen nor proactive in wanting to help us with our orders.

Dirty, unused glasses were left (within reach) at their bar area of which they only took away when I lifted it and passed it to them.
@_@

We even had to clean and wipe the glasses ourselves.

They had plenty of time to smuggle our food into their mouths though. And smoking. And asking if Sanjay can intro me to them (some desperate butch) and whether Jo was straight (see.. so desperate!) and whether I was Malay or Chinese.

Come on la...
Focus your attention on your job and be more bar-proud can...

All in all,
it really was a great fun time, and coincidentally Sara and Alvin were there as well to perform!

Since Jo didn't make it to Timbre day before, they were coming to her. Sort of.
Heh heh...

They day after, Sunday, was the CL/SR day out at Changi.
It was a good thing that I've stayed there before so I more or less knew how to get to it irregardless of how out of the way it was and no matter how long a slope I have to walk up.

Hur hur...
Anne didn't have quite the same luck though.
Apparently she drove around for an hour searching for the place with her kids in the car with her as well.

It was such a surprise to see Adrian at the chalet - partly cos we can then head home together since he's only a few blocks away from me. Heh heh...
And also because it's been awhile since we hung out. The last time was Tammy's birthday, to be exact.

We smoked, chatted and chilled.. Played blackjack as though it was New Years' with Samia the boss winning a whole lot and contributing the winnings the lucky draw as a prize.
Lol.

I felt a bit bad that I won a prize during the lucky draw seeing that I don't work there anymore, so to the chagrin of Radhiah, I gave my prize away to Nemal since all he got was a hair-dryer and exactly what is he gonna blow, right?
Haha...

Anyway,
a big thanks to Jo for organizing the thing - even though I am an attachment in this case and not actual staff (:

Haven't met the girls in awhile...
Get out of your shells, man!!
Heh heh....
<3

Oh yes.
And someone's birthday is comin....
*jeng*jeng*jeng*

2008-09-06T20:56:00.000+08:00

I have been gaming and gaming and gaming for the past few weeks and I have slowly become a force to be reckoned with.

On Day of Defeat only la.
Heh heh…

Lunchtimes (and the odd Friday evening after work/before Timbre) have become game time with the colleagues.
I loike.

B calls me the Starfighter.
And I call myself Polly Pottymouth (as my screen name occasionally).
Either that or beeswax/Flash Gordon/Azure Ray. Depending on my mood.
;)

The guys vs. girls game was pretty shiok.
We watched as man-ginas threatened to sprout from the guys’ southern regions.
HAHA!!

No, this is not becoming an obsession.
This is something to inject a bit of excitement to what would normally be a monotonous work day/week.

Or at least an attempt to.
(:

Game on!

2008-08-30T13:45:00.001+08:00

The week, albeit a tad hectic, was still manageable.

Monday was the farewell for S at Hyatt, after which we headed down to Marriott to pass M some stuff since it was to be his last few days here after which he'll be headed back to The Philippines.

Tuesday I went for dance - after not going for a bit partly due to Death Cab's concert (which was so mighty awesome!!!) 2 weeks ago and classes continue every 2 weeks. Something like that.

Wednesday was spent at Sushi Tei of which R and I amassed quite a fair bit on the bill of which is totally to be covered by me now that R's money been stolen from her LV wallet which she leaves alone in her bag when she goes off for lunch.
Tsk tsk tsk.

Note: Yes, still am saving money and the splurge on Sushi Tei is only cos ermm.. fasting's coming so I wouldn't be spending so much on food soon?
Hur hur...

Thursday there was an event at HBO of which there was some miscomm!!
I thought they didn't need me to be there since Inky said that my name wasn't on the agenda - of which later K clarified that they couldn't put my name down as I was from a different dept and they had assumed that I was gonna be there whole night.
:(

So I made plans.
Lol.

But I'm sure that wall went abso-fab even as I wasn't there and I promised K that the next time they have something like that I'll be there fo' real.
Haha!

So Thursday ended up being a Sushi night - da pao-ing from Ichiban as we rushed for Forgetting Sarah Marshall which was awesome!!
And then we chilled at the kopitiam before I was sent back :)

Friday was the usual Fridays at Timbre!
Where Jo, Alex and I came super early and I was the 'tissue' for Thomas and the rest. Jo was there for the Coriander 'dinner'.

Then I left slightly earlier to go catch Cyborg She after being picked up from Timbre - an underestimated sense of direction - and Jo headed off to OBar.
Joshua like so sad laa... Saying that everyone left and so he headed home after Timbre, forgo-ing supper at Victoria - where I was after the movie ended, partly hoping that I'll bump into them. Haha...

This whole week was also kind of a gaming week!!
We went to play Day of Defeat Mon-Wed and would've gone Thursday had we not submitted our names for the event.
Well, the guys went la cos they didn't submit their names. S and I didn't. Felt so gian.

And the gian-ness was continued til the day after cos when we went, the shop was totally full of students in uniform, smelling so so rancid!!
Nvm.

The guys said we'll try again come Monday. Hur hur...

Of which also comes the dental appointment, and fasting perioddd.....

The lucky fella's in NZ.
o_O

2008-08-26T13:43:00.000+08:00

The sense of loss slowly surrounds me with it's warm embrace.

2008-08-23T22:23:00.002+08:00

It has been a period of spending time and catching up with all the fabulous people in my life.
Jeff and The Man not included.
Lol.

Jeffrey is to busy playing the OC and boyfriend to his sort of newly-minted girlfriend to make more time for me.

Of all the years that I've known him (5 years - okay la not that long. lol), he's never been attached and was only always harping on a certain femme.
Hur hur..

But I'm sure we'll be meeting soon ayes.
In like 2 weeks or so.
Haha!

The fabulous four and I have been able to meet like on a weekly basis as of the mo'. How super is that?!

I totally love you guys and it is so awesome that we're meeting more often now.
As per compared to the depressing 'every few months' meets.
Best friends are not supposed to do that to each other.
Hur hur..

More catch-ups and updates for one and all.
Make sure that we never get left behind on each of our lives :)

A time of secret lifes,
and ghosts of the past.

Planning for Alicia's wedding has also begun.
We are her self-declared wedding planners cum bridesmaids!
Exciting..!

Actually...

There really is a lot on my mind actually.
Not as in that I have a lot to think about, but in the sense that I have so many things to say cos really aLot has happened.
Gah.

Among some of which included networking parties at Marriott.. Farewell bash of the Yasmin (lucky girl who's now basking under the glorious Valencia sun).. Khaki outings and ice cream.. Fridays at Timbre.. Being part of the FPH shoot (teeny-weeny role only la ah)..
And tooooo manyyy...

Well let's not bother with that then and get on with the program.

Monday night will be spent at Hyatt for a farewell party, and so we shall work from there in due time :)

2008-08-21T22:07:00.001+08:00

Obviously, so so much has happened.

Decisions were made and I'm bent on them being met.
Seriously.

I'm sorry that it's caused pain and anguish, but that's all part and parcel of life ya...
And like I've said,
we'll still be able to talk and I will still definitely try to be there for you. So long as you don't take advantage of that, and if you don't intentionally take your time in moving on.

But I'm sure you'll be true to your word.
Right?

:)

This is really just a time where I want to be able to do my own thing, and have more time for my friends and family as well.
Of course there are other reasons that came with the decision to part.
But that's for us to know.

.be Sedated.

2008-08-07T10:01:00.003+08:00

There was a short trip to the hospital one evening after work (the Dad looked like he was having a housewarming party there lars), after which I popped by the clubs for a bit.
To bear witness to a mini-fight between and Ang Moh and a local.
LOL.

It seemed like I was in a different dimension.
Work seemed faraway and distant.
In that sense.

Maybe it's partly cos the hospital was (practically) at the other end of the island.
Lol.

These few days has been of late nights, and lack of sleep.
Generated and built up from the weekend, I reckon.

Well I'm sure I can sleep back all those hours soon enough.
For now, it'll just be waking late for work - but still ensuring that I reach fairly on time (:

And here's a little something something.
A wee lame quiz I did.
Based on whatever songs I have at my pc at work.
Hur hur...

How to Play
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

How are you feeling today?
Days Go By [Remix] – Dirty Vegas

Quite.

Will you get far in life?
Go Girl – Pitbull

Yes, go me!

How do your friends see you?
Every You Every Me - Placebo

Will you get married?
Kiss Kiss – Chris Brown

What is your best friend's theme song?
Jumbo - Underworld

What is the story of your life?
Falling Away With You - Muse

What was high school like?
Hide And Seek – Imogen Heap

More like hiding from the discipline master then. Which is ironic since I was a Student Leader a.k.a Prefect.
Lol.

How can you get ahead in life?
K.O.S – Underworld

What is the best thing of your friends?
Will You Carry Me Across The Water – Midnight Choir

That they do (:

What's in store for this weekend?
Gimme That – Chris Brown

Describe your grandparents.
Sexual Eruption – Snoop Dogg

I don’t even want to imagine.

How's your life going?
Transatlantacism – Death Cab for Cutie

What song will they play at your funeral?
Waiting On An Angel – Ben Harper

How schweet.

How does the world see you?
Map Of The Problematique - Muse

Really mehzzz..

Will you have a happy life?
Born Slippy - Underworld

Hur hur…

Do people secretly lust after you?
Fidelity – Regina Spektor

Whazzat supposed to mean then…

How can you make yourself happy?
Closer – Ne-Yo

I like-y Closer.

What should you do with your life?
Meds - Placebo

Future addict? Hmm…
No thanks.

Will you ever have children?
Walter Reed – Michael Penn

What song would you strip to?
Feeling Good - Muse

A tad too slow to strip to aye.

What does your mum think of you?
Sway – Bic Runga

What is your deep, dark secret?
Sleep Tonight - Stars

Only my err… dreams will tell?

What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
Luka – Suzanne Vega

Oh wow how utterly vicious and threatening.

What's your personality like?
D.A.N.C.E – Justice

Finally something apt!

What song will be played at your wedding?
Super Star – Carpenters

Super Slow.

Like Hana says,
glass slippers ain't gonna fit forever.

.catch a Fire.

2008-08-05T13:32:00.002+08:00

It's nice to know that some things never change.
Perhaps we've matured a bit, here and there but the base of it is still around.. Lingering..
How we fall back into the familiarity of the past with ease.

And how easily the camaraderie presents itself.

I hope no grudges will be brought forward from that day.
There definitely were certain things that got out of hand, and were exaggerated.

Partly due to outside forces I find.
(Ask me and I shall explain further. Hur hur)

After all,
that's how we've been, and that's partly how we each show affection for each other. Kinda. Haha...

Remember the 'fuck off and die la' moment.
No offense was taken.
Cos that's just how friend-friend we all were.

I really am hoping for there to be no grudges.
I'm sure we can be mature enough to get over all that.

We've been through so much I'm sure we can get through this.
How old already la eh both/three of you...
:)

“It is not our abilities that show what we truly are, it is our choices.”

.be Sedated.

2008-07-29T17:34:00.000+08:00

I now have bruises/blue-blacks on my left knee from dance.
And part of my workload is to be taken over by machines.
*horrors of horror*

Dark Knight was awesome with characters that exude more complexity, depth and appear to have more character than their campy counterparts of yore.
And the new PR intern's watched Dark Knight 4 times; and not to mention regularly monitors the web for uber cool Dark Knight toys.
*psycho fan*

Hur hur...

My nails now match my 'buddhist-y' forever-there beads.
I like-y Closer by Ne-Yo.

I'm not really in the mood to blog still.
Okay thanks bye.

.be Sedated.

2008-07-24T09:23:00.000+08:00

And now...
There are even more things on the mind.
Craps.

At least the deferment is confirmed.
Good thing. Right?

So...
Anyway,
This is what I stumbled upon a few weeks ago.

Really good way to amuse the mind.
Kind of.
HAHA!!

From the movie SOUTHLAND TALES

TEEN HORNINESS IS NOT A CRIME

Teen horniness is not a crime
Open your heart and your mind
Horniness is on the rise
Look inside and you will find

Teen horniness is not a crime
Opem your heart and your mind

Cause the numbers don’t lie
Observe the nerds who shot up Columbine

An overcrowded nation
Leads to sex frustration
All your legislation
Can’t stop teen’s masturbation

Miss Krysta Now,
here to show you how

It’s the mid-west kid with the twisted sound
Miss Krysta Now

You could be free
And fly with me
And fly with me

Never got laid, no
Didn’t get laid, so

Traded in their book and they got a cage

Couldn’t get laid, no
Never got laid, so

2008 is the horny teen age

Krysta Now is the porn star character played by Sarah Michelle Gellar and this is her pop ditty debut.
She totally sounds like Britney Spears.

And I believe that that was the sound they were aiming for.
LOL.

There's even a whole rapper section.

You can be free...
And fly with me........

Hur hur..

.catch a Fire.

2008-07-23T22:02:00.002+08:00

Haven't really felt like blogging really.

There's too many things on the mind. To pen them down would be too tedious a task.

It's been extremely wonderful having spent more time with the thems as per compared to the average times we normally meet in a year.

We should work towards making that number bigger and bigger.

Staying at opposite ends of the country should stop posing to be such a hindrance.

We can always meet each other halfway :)

The date to meet the rest of the Secondary people's looming near.

Note: Must send out reminder.

How can I describe my Secondary School years....

There's honestly too many things, eventful most were, that it is really so difficult to describe it in only a few words.

Truly.

Only those who were there with me would know the full extent to what we went through and experienced that were so god damn fabulous :)

.bE sedated.

2008-07-12T20:37:00.017+08:00

I've been told that I have tenacity.
And that I am definitely well-suited in handling events and of dealing with people and such.

Unfortunately I have done nothing to give myself any sort of headstart in terms of that.

We all do what we have to do.
Doesn't necessarily mean that the things we (have to) do are really the things we wanna do.

You know?

I have conveniently undertaken the post of people-round-er.
Apparently since about early May, the schoolmates have been attempting to plan for a meet up.

Which bore no fruit.

All starting the moment Apek put the above class photo up - which I refused to be in at that time so search for me all you want.
Lol.

"Where are you going?"

"To the back. Don't feel like being in the photo. Heh heh.."

"Really? Okay I'll stay here with you. I don't feel like taking the photo with the rest either."

That's Siddig for you.. Fab friend.
And that's me being weird. Haha...

Anyway,
I never really bothered to read the tags. Mainly cos the person who started tagging was someone whom I could care less about and thus I didn't think anything she said was worth my time reading.

I am selectively cocky/arrogant.

Until.. Rahim started tagging as well and Then I knew about what's been going on, and what they've been trying to do.

It kinda made the OCD in me annoyed.
I mean.. What's so difficult about rounding people up to meet?

So I took matters into my own hands.

Decided on a date, time and location. Contacted as many as I could - mainly the 'clique leaders' and told Them to round up Their gang but at the same time if I get hold of their individual contacts, I'll personally contact them as well.
Never hurts to be informed twice.

I knew of one, or two (actually just one) who might kick up a tiny fuss about the location or whatever.
Told the middleman to inform the fussy fuss-er to contact me directly should he/she be disgruntled.

Did the job. He/She kept his/her mouth shut.

Gawd I'm being so bitchy.
He/She just brings out the bitchy-ness in me I suppose.
Ho-hum.

Soon a reminder will be sent out.
And before you know it, we shall see each other again.
Hur hur...

.fLy away with me.

2008-07-09T21:02:00.002+08:00

I love, love, love dance...

And I refuse to find it unfortunate that it took me this long to rediscover it.
Actually,

come to think of it....

Ballet when you're a toddler doesn't really count, does it.

Hur hur...

I can't say it enough.

I LOVE LOVE DANCE :)

2008-06-30T13:40:00.005+08:00

Word on the street is.....

Viewpoint:
SEX AND THE CITY

"In the Fifties women may have been trapped in domesticity, while told they should be grateful for the security, but Sex and the City trapped its women in a world of pure image and artifice and told them that they should be grateful for the glamour. The image of the ideal womanhood that SATC celebrated was the thin to the point of anorexia, hairstyled to the catwalk perfection and on trend to the point of exhaustion. Women were encouraged to be sexually competitive in a way that made the men they pursued not individuals who were destined to become intimates, but captive animals to parade and then dissect, in front of others... [The show] deserves to be remembered as an episode in emptiness."
Michael Gove in The Times

To each their own, aye...
We know not to be so extreme. Hur hur..

BRITAIN

It wasn't all bad:

Chewing gum that disappears from pavements when it rains will go on sale next year. The water-soluble Clean Gum, which uses a special polymer instead of a strongly adhesive synthetic latex that goes into ordinary gum, has been hailed as a solution to a littering problem that costs councils 150m pounds a year to clean up. "The best solution is if people did not drop gum off at all, but that is quite far off," said a spokesman for Keep Britain Tidy. "We greatly welcome this invention."

It'd be cool if this really takes off - with no side effects - and the government brings back the gum here :)

Spirit of the age:

Police in Kent have refused to break up illegal raves on health and safety grounds. Residents of Shoreham have repeatedly complained about all-night raves in nearby woods. The police, however, say they are powerless to intervene because "it's too dark". They added that breaking up parties is dangerous, because the ravers might drive home drunk.

Read: LOL

WASHINGTON

Charges dropped against 20th hijacker:

A Pentagon tribunal has decided to pursue death penalty charges against six men believed to have been involved in the 9/11 terrorist attacks. They include K. S. Md.**, who has apparently confessed to masterminding the atrocity. However, charges have been dropped against a sixth suspect, the so-called 20th hijacker, Md. al-Q**. No reasons were given, but it was noted that the charges were dropped "without prejudice", which means they can be reinstated at a later date. Under US law, the men, who are currently held at the detention facility at Guantanamo Bay, must be arraigned within 30 days and go on trial within four months.

**did not insert full name

Hmmmm...

MEXICO

Top policemen murdered:

Three of Mexico's most senior policemen have been murdered during the past fortnight in the latest surge in drug-fuelled violence. The victims were: Edgar Millan Gomez, the head of anti-drugs police operations, who was gunned down outside his home in Mexico City; the head of the national anti-kidnap unit, Esteban Robles, who was killed the following day outside his home in the capital; and Juan Antonio Roman Garcia, the deputy police chief in the border town of Ciudad Juarez, who died last weekend when his car was sprayed with bullets. "We have to come together to confront this evil," said President Felipe Calderon. "We Mexicans have to definitively and categorically say: "That's enough!"

Drug dealers there are damn

garang,

man...

________________________

Cultivating terrorists in Guantanamo

When Abd. Salih blew himself up in Iraq last week, he officially became the eighth former inmate of Guantanamo Bay to take part in Islamist violence. What lessons should we draw from this? The Pentagon's view is that it shows how vicious the camp's detainees are and how dangerous it is ever to release them. But what it really shows, says George Monbiot, is "how dangerous it was to put them there in the first place". In the video he made before his suicide bombing, al-Ajmi said it was his appalling treatment in Guantanamo that had motivated him: his lawyer maintains that guards had broken his client's arm to stop him praying, and that his initial confession to being a Taliban fighter had been made "under pressure and threats". This squares with the other accounts of other former Guantanamo inmates, who likewise describe "treatment that would radicalise almost anyone". They talk of routine beatings, of fathers being clubbed in front of their sons, of repeated execution threats. "Even if you put the ethics of such treatment to one side", it's surely clear that it makes future atrocities more, not less, likely.
George Monbiot, The Guardian

Something far worse than

Cock-Meat Sandwich.

Heh.

A nation quite relaxed about lies and deceit

Funny how the French get away with it, says Michael Klasgen. When a big German company like Siemens is accused of corruption - bribing foreign governments to win contracts - Germans react as if it's the end of the world. When the same happens in France, no one turns a hair. According to The Wall Street Journal, Alstom - the French maker of high-speed trains and power stations - is being probed for corruption by French and Swiss investigators; but far from calling for the heads of Alstom's executives, no one even seems to have noticed. This speaks volumes about the French. They just don't get worked up about scandals, lies and deceit. They affect to despise money, so everything to do with finance is kept under wraps: until recently not even the state's auditors knew how much the president was getting through expenses. Far from heaping shame on wrong-doers, they secretly admire Mitterand, Chirac and other politicians with skeletons in their cupboards. The French adhere to the old Chinese Maxim: "Don't give away other people's secrets and you'll never risk losing face yourself." At bottom what they really care about is etiquette and outward appearances, which is why theirs is the language of diplomacy and their country the centre of fashion. If a foreign paper hadn't blown the whistle, the Alstom scandal would probably never have come to light at all.

Just an interesting read/insight.

Squeaky voices are more sexy

A woman's voice becomes more attractive to both men and women, when she is at her most fertile point in the monthly cycle, says the New Scientist. Researchers at the State University of New York recorded female volunteers counting from one to ten at various points in their menstrual cycles, then asked a panel of men and women to listen to the tapes and asses whether or not the voices sounded sexy. "The results showed a significant increase in voice attractiveness ratings as the risk of conception increased across the menstrual cycle," said the researchers in the Journal of Evolution and Human Behaviour. "Growing evidence points to the impact of hormones on the larynx as being the source of these changes." Separate studies have found that women's voices become more high-pitched at times of peak fertility, and that men are more attracted to high-pitched voices.

More power to squeaky chicks out there. Haha!

TABLOIDS

An Australian driver has been fined for putting a seatbelt around his beer, rather than his child. Police said they were "shocked and appalled" to find the tinnies safely strapped in between two adults in the back seat while the five-year-old child sat unrestrained on the floor.

A kebab shop owner in Istanbul has been criticised by human rights activists for forcing his waiters to have Botox injections to stop them sweating. Kemal Koc said he tried ordering staff to have showers, and use deodorant, but it made no difference to the stench of BO. "Then I read about Botox. It worked, and now my restaurant is free of stink, except the delicious fragrance of kebab and onions."

These 2 reports are just plain hilarious :D

Note: News/Stories are courtesy of, and given credit to the publication
THE WEEK - The Best of the British and Foreign Media

.bLimey.

2008-06-28T01:28:00.002+08:00

The moment tickets for Death Cab went on sale, there was a FRENZY!

By lunchtime, the $68 and $148 tickts were selling out.
Either they kept flashing red, or pink - to signify that only single seats were left.

I was horrified!
I couldn't purchase any yet til the evening when I'd meet Josh and we could discuss about what tickets to get.

Plus Garon said he'd get back to Boris and I on MONDAY After he chats with Lyn about it.
*Dies

In the end, Josh said to get the tickets immediately after I get home cos they were really totally slipping through our fingers.

So I told Boris that I'm getting me some Death Cab tickets first. Do or die.

Now he's gonna wait for Garon,
while I am totally satisfied.

I've got me some $108 tickets for Death Cab!!
And Inky's already got hers too.. At 9am -_-"

Ahhh...
I am contented.

.tRansatlanticism.

2008-06-23T14:18:00.002+08:00

The atlantic was born today and i'll tell you how...
The clouds above opened up and let it out.

The moment you turn 21, you start getting phone calls from banks and establishments hankering after you.
Actually, scratch that. Even a few months Before your turning 21 they’d already have started giving you phone calls – all in hopes of attaining you as a customer to contribute to each of their fat commissions.

“Are you interested in this card?”
“Would you like to sign up for that?”
“How about a trial run first?”
“Upon signing up you are entitled to so and so benefits.”

No wonder more and more people under 30 are in debt (as reported in the news).
They make it so easy.

After all, even if you aren’t 21 yet you can already get a Citibank Clear Card. Granted the limit is only $500, but it is only the beginning of what could be a downward spiral for people who succumb easily as they start getting used to and being enthralled with using a credit card.

By the time they do hit 21 they could be reaching out for more applications for the not-so-fantastic plastic.

I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole.
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
Making islands where no island should go.
Oh no.

I’m not really one to talk.

But I believe that I have it enough in me to know when to stop – even as some people (read: MQH) might not believe so.
Hmph.

And they Are useful and necessary, I feel.
I mean even MQH has one so I’m sure he agrees that they’re useful.

Hur hur..

For example, the Citibank one offers rebates. It being an SMRT card and me being a public transport user, it makes sense to have it.
And not forgetting the one other important reason:

Entry to Zouk!

(:

The other card is strictly for only when necessary – or actually whenever I can use it, I do. It’s the whole ‘get points each time you spend’ thing.

And I’ve never missed a payment.

Having these cards also makes it easier for online shopping (okay, not a very good example) and when booking for holidays for instance.

Bottom line,
apply only if necessary and not in excess. What’s the point of having many when one or two is enough.

In this day and age where the high life and materialism runs amok, it is a dangerous thing to have credit on hand.

Those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more.
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh no.

Speaking of holidays,
once again plans have gone awry.

I’ve said before that the moment I blog about a pending holiday it then falls apart.
And true enough these latest plans have.

I’ll have to bid Indon goodbye already and I haven’t even set foot there yet.

The next time, I’ll only blog about a holiday plan After plane tickets, hotel reservations, and the whole she-bang is a done deal.

I’m now banking on September.
As I’ve told Jo, it is do or die cos I’m starting to feel kinda jaded by it all.
Sighs~

I need you so much closer..

I’m a bit cheered up though. A bit only. Heh.
By news of Death Cab coming to town!!

I’ll skip the whole SingFest for them anytime.

Thus means more goodbyes. This time to Alicia Keys and Travis mainly.

Ticket sales start on the 27th (if I’m not mistaken).
*Exciting

I need you so much closer,
So come on, come on..

.be Sedated.

2008-06-22T16:32:00.007+08:00

Our evening kicked off last night not without any mishap.

After endless delay, we finally set foot out the door to head towards the train station and get our asses to town where Jo was patiently awaiting our arrival.

It was while walking towards the train station that the frenzy came about.
I was dressed in my Heritage tube dress with my Marc Jacobs see through vest(?) thrown over - and this was all after I changed outfits 3 times.

Normally I don't bother with a bra when wearing a tube but for some reason I did, and it was a good thing that I did.

While walking, I was on the phone with Jo and was casually making my was down with the sore-legged snoozer walking alongside me.

Suddenly I felt something amiss.
There was a sort of 'squeezed' sensation at my abdomen which should rightfully be at the chest area as the tube was the kind that ruched at the top.
I looked down, and starring right at me was my bra underneath the see-through Marc Jacobs.

I shrieked in horror.

"Oh my god! My bra is showing!!"

Snoozer could only laugh at me and unhelpfully remarked, "No wonder people were starring at you as they walked past."

Thank god during the time of discovery no one was walking past and I could quickly pull my tube back up without causing unwanted stares.

"Can you imagine if you hadn't been wearing your bra then you would totally be exposed."

Not helping at all.

"Well, if I wasn't wearing a bra the chances of that happening would be lesser as I would be more conscious of pulling the tube up and I'd be able to better feel and know if the top was sliding down."

We finally reached town about half an hour after the stated time.
Grabbed a bite at MacDonalds after checking out the Mango sale and then began the expedition to search for deserving cufflinks for the Alex at about 8pm.

The first stop was Dunhill at Ngee Ann City.

Most of their designs were automobile inspired.
Steering Wheel, Gear, Headlights... These were some of the designs available among many others more.

Jo took note of her favored design, and the exorbitant price, before we proceeded to Montblanc.

The designs there were not as nice.

We hit Hugo Boss and Tiffany as well since they were within view.

The cufflinks at Tiffany's took the cake.
It cost over $3k.

Or maybe we just have expensive taste.
Heh heh...

The tiny and minute - albeit diamond encrusted - thing cost more than Jo's Tiffany bangle!
Which obviously has more material to it.

Then began the aimless wandering around. With each store, the price range kept going higher it seemed.
Cartier was next. The design looked so precious and classic and the price, well... it had a price to go with it.

Soon enough we were done with Ngee Ann City and ventured on to Paragon.

Basically, to cut things short, most of the stores were closing by that time - which in turn did not give us much options.
The only stores we could turn to were the ones participating under the Midnight Madness.

But Jo already thankfully had more or less made up her mind about what she wanted to buy from where.
And we did. Manage to get them in time - a pair of knotted cufflinks and black leather belt for the Alex.

By that time, it wasn't even 10pm.
Singapore's aim (among it's many others) is to be a shopping haven.. Mecca even..
But if most of the shops can't even stay open for a bit longer - on a SATURDAY night nonetheless - how are we to reach that status.

To think that it's the GSS season, yet the shops don't seem to be doing more to embrace that occasion.

I don't think there's much to be excited about either with the opening of more malls in town like Ion Orchard and the one taking over the Hotel Phoenix site if the opening hours are gonna be the same.

But that said,
if opening hours are to be extended, it would mean longer working hours for the staff. Considering that if now, a number of sales staff are more excited about closing shop rather than closing a sale, how would that in turn affect customer service rendered to a customer if the staff is disgruntled about having to chalk in more time at work.

Catch me some 22

Tammy's birthday is coming!
Get ready to celebrate :)

.catch a Fire.

2008-06-20T13:53:00.012+08:00

So...
Linda thinks I'm cool.

And before that she mentioned that I was like a wildcat who knows to return to normality when needed.
I can go crazy, and be free.. But when the time comes for me to be real again, I can.

Not the popular-cool.
More like the 'I'm-not-bothered-by-what-others-say' kind of cool.

I take it as a compliment.

No one should bother themselves with what others think.
You wanna take note of it, process it..
Fine.

All constructively, and with a pinch of salt.

Not to the extent that you let it bother you so.

You are your own biggest critic after all.
And only you know yourself better than anyone else.

There was a whole lot of ice-cream action going on

One of the rhinestones finally fell out today after 3 weeks.
And the fake nail is still there too.

I don't know how to get it out(!!!!).

And sushi too..

I now've left only 2 more lessons with Claire before the end of my first dance course. It has been totally amazing and revitalising - basically the only form of 'sort of' exercise for me.

And it also reminded me how unflexible I have become since I stopped taking ballet ten thousand aeons ago.
Heh.

The lessons were a bit awkward at first cos I threw myself to the wolves alone. With no one to fall back on other than on my own 2 feet.
But it was just a matter of getting used to. Which I proudly have :)

From being afraid that I might not be able to catch on quickly, it's been the complete opposite instead.
Know the moves like the back of my hand now I do.

And not caring how people might think that I look stupid or retarded really helped.
So each time I put myself out there and I make sure that I'm one of those standing within view of the walled mirror. What's the point if you can't see yourself dance right...

You can't see yourself = you don't know if you're doing the right thing = no improvement for the lone you

I don't think I looked that stupid anyway.
Haha..

I definitely will, and vow to myself, that I will not end it here and continue to pursue this and learn more, more, more.
Before the moment for degree-taking arrives and I'll be stuck with endless studying and less me time.
=/

Glorious, glorious food...

Mai and I will also soon find ourselves (not so far) abroad in 2 weeks' time.
How we quickly have planned this.
Hur hur...

It was totally last minute and on the spur.
I suppose since the Phuket plan was postponed due to the villa being under renovation, we shall make do with this - returning to my roots. So it's off to Indonesia for us.

WOOT.

Must brush up on my Bahasa already.
But, as mentioned, since Risca said that I already have the accent this should come easy.
I hope.

It's totally going to be so much different since the last time I've been there.

"So do you know the river where the water that flows through is so soothingly warm?"

To which she retorts,
"What do you mean river? You mean there's a river that is clean still?"

It'll be a dusty, (literally) jam-packed, short adventure.
Can't wait!

Delectable ice-cream!

I've also recently just realised that I've formally reached a one-year mark with working for Channel 60.
And considering I've been here since my intern days,in 4 months' time I'd be reaching my 2nd year (unofficially). My friends already think that I've been there since like forever.
Hur hur..

Bubblegum + Caramel Mud Cake ice cream with NERDS!!

I also recommended the Affiliate Marketing job to the recently graduated Gillian. Actually I recommended it to quite a number of people and she was the main one to have actually sent in her resume.
Heh.

I wish her all the luck and hope that Jace gives her a call (:

It'll be pretty cool for her to get to work there especially since she stays so near.
And, the job includes travelling. Mainly to Thailand for the newbie.
Imagine all the (practically paid for - since airfare and accomodation will be under company expenses) shopping!!! :)

"That's why I asked you whether you were interested in applying. Cos the Exec will be handling the Thai market."

Hur hur..
I'm comfortable with where I am, thank you.
For now.

The full-time job I have now is practically perfect for juggling studies with.

YUM!

I have also finally, after months and months of procrastinating (slightly more than 6 months, in fact) tailored/front-ended a batch of trailers for July.

To think I was supposed to be doing this since late last year.

Hmph.

The only thing left would be to dump them out to the airmaster and await the boss's approval.
This is such an easy-peasy job (for those who are used to using a video editing program) that I don't know and can't remember why I put it off so much. Especially when I quite enjoy hole-ing myself up in the edit suite, away from the glare and bright lights of the office.
Heh heh..

Evidence of gluttony of the past week. With sickeningyly sweet banana crumble with butterscotch cream and vanilla ice cream. Sighs~

There was quite a fair bit of movie mania the past week too.

SATC was like checking out a whole new wardrobe.
Omg all the clothes, bags and shoes! It was like retail haven. And Mai surprisingly quite enjoyed it too.
Hur hur..

Product placement was EVERYWHERE and I loved every minute of it (:

I'm still not done with the series though.
Have but only Season 6 left. I totally succumbed and went to catch the movie.

Hulk was pretty awesome.
It was a tad amusing as well to check out the scrawny Edward Norton morph into a huge beast.

Edward Norton's pretty cute :)

Liv Tyler had a split second's worth of product placement too.
Being the face of Givenchy, they had one tiny scene where her loose powder case was flashed in all of the Givenchy's shining glory.

The only reason I recognised it was because I have the loose powder too.
Heh heh..

Even though I didn't watch the Ang Lee Hulk and only caught snippets of it during the one time that a lecturer showed it in class, I reckon that this is better.

AwesomeAWESOMEawesome

Zohan managed to entertain.
Lots of raunchy jokes and it was said to be Adam Sandler going back to his Little Nicky days.

Chris Rock makes an appearance, Mariah Carey, and so does Kevin James (Larry from last year's Chuck and Larry) and a random tennis player known for his short temper.

Their accents are B-A-D and worse even the garishly gay outfits that Zohan dons throughout the movie.

Farni!

Oh yes..
I also caught KUNG FU PANDA.
Funny, heartwarming, and a tad predictable.

But predictable is not always bad, is it.
Hur hur..

There are so many more movies that I am waiting for this year.
MAMMA MIA! (with Meryl Streep), 21, WANTED, DARK KNIGHT, FORGETTING SARAH MARSHALL, TROPIC THUNDER (!! a Ben Stiller, Jack Black, and Robert Downey Jr. collaboration! Check out their viral video online!).

I'm sure there'll be more added to this short list soon.

Yesterday during lunch time the Karen, Inky and I squeezed in some recce-ing time.
Obviously we got back a fair bit later but it was fine cos it was for a valid reason.
(:

We popped by Md Sultan, Orchard, Peranakan Place and CQ.

We already had quotes from DXO, and The Arena wasn't available as they already have programs planned for the period that we intend to hold our DnD.

I figured that we should check out the not-very-thriving businesses as they were more likely to give us more value-for-money quotes.

And it's true!

The third stop was the most professional.
Their rep had a great presentation and answered all our questions before we could even ask them.

And their quote..
is so reasonable!!

2nd stop thinks we're drunkards.
Quoted $80/pax for Drinks only. And I felt that they were kinda a tad rude.
Okay, granted that we came unannounced - only because the staff on the phone said that nobody would be around during lunch time (Liar!) so we were only trying our luck.

And the fella, was a tad hostile.
He only loosened up and became friendlier when he found out we were from Channel 60.

We even had to show our cards Before he loosened up, mind you.

First stop was pretty fabulous.
Karen has her eye set on that and at the moment, we are awaiting a quote from them before we formally make our decision.

We are so much closer to DnD!!!
Exciting!

And I totally have got to start on designing the invites and planning of the decor.
Karen thought it was very apt that I wanted to be in charge of the creative side and Nick is doing the entertainment portion of DJ and Emcee hiring.
Considering we were from Production a.k.a Creative Services.

Yeap.
That's our department name.
Fancy-schmancy.

We're now halfway through the year.
Doesn't time pass by so god darn quickly.

Blink and you'll miss it.

Before you know it, DnD will be here..
The Hanas would have celebrated their 21st.. Jo and Josh's birthdays would be over.. The Dad would've moved together with Little Sister, Brother-in-Law and Angelic Niece..

And we would be celebrating the new year.

And thus also entails the beginning of the studying.

I really enjoy looking forward. Even if it might bring dread.
Heh heh..

.be Sedated.

2008-06-15T09:04:00.003+08:00

Okay so this is the oddity that was found in the morning of a weekend...

IT'S A BOY GIRL THING was playing on Star Movies.

At first you think and say...
Nothing wrong with that.

The movie was produced in 2006.
Nothing wrong with that either right....

BUT,
there IS something wrong with that.

The movie's supposed to be out in the cinemas in a few weeks (!!).

That's the tricky thing about bringing in a movie produced 2 years ago.
Movies are coming to the telly faster and faster these days.

Unless of course, it was a 'purposely' thing.
As in...

Perhaps the cinema people are targeting those who don't subscribe to Star Movies?
LOL.

Well I just hope this isn't gonna start being a 'common' thing.
It would be quite a bummer to find out that a movie you've just caught in the cinemas is screening on your telly as well.
=/

.We are who we ARE.

2008-06-13T09:40:00.002+08:00

Here's the question:

What are we all fighting for, exactly?

Today, Friday the 13th is the day that the death of an ex-colleague cum acquaintance is announced on the news.
How apt.

He passed while serving the nation in Brunei.

Once again, the oh-so-passe saying that 'Life Is Short' is thrown at my face.

We are of the same age, and he had so much more in life to look forward to. As we all do. I suppose it wasn't meant to be, for him.

Are we fighting for the right things?
In the right way?

.catch a Fire.

2008-06-09T09:08:00.008+08:00

You know you've reached a certain point in life when your friend states that there's gonna be an announcement...

...and the first thing that pops in your head has something to do with MARRIAGE...

...and you're RIGHT!

The second engagement announced in a week, nonetheless.

And soo....
in a year's time Alicia will be a Missus no longer!!!

How exciting (:

That Friday night of the announcement she totally diverted any attention away from her. Jo was the one to blast out the message:

There's gonna be an announcement made tonight. Please try to make it.

So we were all waiting in anticipation.
It did not help at all that Jo had a CB that night and thus was one of the later people to arrive.

Finally she burst out...

There's gonna be a wedding next year...
...And no, it's not mine.

It's ALICIA'S!!!!!

Check out my bling, yo!

And then the flurry and total buzz of excitement began.

Lemme see the ring!

How did he propose? At a park near our house. Yes, he did bend on one knee

Where's the wedding gonna be held? Either St Anne's or St Margaret's

Have you started thinking about getting your own place? Ya.. Reviewing all options

Have you told your parents? No (insert sheepish smile)

Did you see this (the proposal) coming? Kind of could tell it was coming cos of the weird questions he suddenly started asking

These were among some of the questions blasted at the newly-engaged Miss Alicia Fong.

I was truly pretty excited.
Cos now we can start planning a hen night for one of our own! (:

The night of revelry continued after that.

Jo pseudo-asks for my hand in matrimony...

With Alicia getting her own personal (but not very professional) striptease courtesy of Sara and the gang...

Alicia the Slinky 'Seductry' pole

Alicia: Oi why are your clothes still on la

Finally the top comes off

The (attempt to) impart Hip Hop dance knowledge from me to Risca and Sanjay...

Put your arms in the air like you just don't care

And you slice 'em down to a 'Whaddup yo' stance. Lol

Spirit fingersssss...

And Josh looking like a total emo bore with the brother Bryan - whom most seemed to have forgotten existed cos they kept asking who's Josh's friend.
LOL.

It is predicted that they will be the next to walk the aisle...

Let's hope that nothing was jinxed by having this statement put out.
The things I mention always seem to get jinxed - especially travel plans =/
Hur hur...

If I were to get a ring...
...I know that I'd want one that comes in a *a-hem!* blue box, with a step cut.

Step cut

The step cut is made with simple incisions on the stone that create a series of steps along the surface.

The emerald is one of the most popular form of step cut, and used for engagement rings.

It is rectangular in shape and does not sparkle as much as the other stone shapes, but its elongated surface presents a regal appearance.

The step cut is reminiscent of antique and vintage rings.

Thus it's either an emerald cut or square cut for me. Preferrably set with 2 trilliant stones on each side (:
I'm fine with it not being as shiny/sparkly as round, princess cuts among others.

Trillion's basically triangular cut diamonds. They're located on each side of the main cut above

It'll be even better if the central piece could be a canary diamond that was flanked by 2 icy clear white trillions.

It's flanked by 2 smaller emerald cuts in this photo

*Hint*Hint*Hint*
Hur hur...
(:

In other news, I have found myself a dance partner in the form of Lerisca Lensun.
Next week off we go to look for dance practice shoes!

Let's have a Salsa-Styling good time (:

Risca and I also managed to spend some time and hang out together again on Saturday like we did before in what seems like aeons ago.

Between our relationships, my wanting to curb expenses here and there, her exams and the occasional family visits back in Indon...
...Barely could we make time to properly meet.

We dined at Ichiban Boshi (Surprisingly not bad! With plenty of variety. I still love Sushi Tei more though) and chatted about...

...Relationships...
The future...
...Alicia and her future...
Alicia's upcoming hen night...
...Staying abroad...
Friendships...

Whatever we could think of or that came to mind basically.
She also thought that I might speak Indon with my family at home cos she reckons that I speak Malay with an Indon accent.
Hur hur...

It's totally amazing that All of us forged our close bonds from the most random of places.
Coriander mainly... With the rest (of extensions) falling easily into place.

<3

Okay too many photos already.
Heh heh...

Here's to long lasting friendships and more radical announcements being made together.

Even if some of your photos aren't here I'm sure you know you're well placed in my <3

xoxo~

.be Sedated.

2008-06-05T10:11:00.009+08:00

Okay so anyway,
I actually have already drafted a blog, albeit incomplete, on Sunday. That usually happens. I’ll blog, and not complete it til it feels so obsolete to continue on with the draft. Hence I’ve discarded that and am drafting a new one (:

First things first!
The family has welcomed a new Bebe into the household…

Isn’t she so the cutest?
(:

About her name (of which she has 2 – as in main name and middle name – and I am so not revealing the whole name cos errr… I’m a tad amused/pai seh-ed by it), Little Sister had already decided on the main name.
I suppose Radhiah and I kinda gave her head ideas to add a middle name for Bebe. I was only half kidding though when I suggested that she name the Bebe after Annika Sorenstam the golfer. So yes, I was utterly caught unawares when I found out the middle name sounded as such.

It was given a different spelling – Aneeqa

I really liked the (original) name.
~sighs

She has Cheena features with Malay skin tone and is absolutely adorable.
Especially when she does the ‘look like want to laugh with hands outstretched but with no sound emanating from within’.
Lol.

“Waaa… So lucky. She no need to go tanning already lo.”

Bebe is also truly an angel cos her night wailings can barely be heard by the rest of the household!
She only wakes her Mummy and Daddy. Thank gawd.

The unfortunate thing though, her jaundice has been cause for a scare.
She was admitted to the hospital 2 days after being discharged, stayed for 3 days, then 3 days later she got admitted again.

I know that jaundice is the norm for newborns and that it would be more serious for premature babies – but being born a week earlier than expected isn’t considered premature right? – but this is really pretty much disheartening.

Check out her ride with the massive wheels. Some big ass Ferrari pram -_-"

The past week has also more or less been a time to groom for me.
Went to get my eyebrows done, legs waxed, did my hair, fixed my nails… and today I’ll be meeting Jo and off we go to our pedicure appointments.

So adamant I was with grooming that I even made all the appointments 2 weeks in advance.
Normally I’ll be calling them impromptu and be crossing my fingers in hopes that there’ll be a slot for me.

“Hi, can I book for an appointment like now?”

Very last minute.

My eyebrows and hair were done last Wednesday at Browhaus and Maison, respectively. Goodbye caterpillar eyebrows and painstakingly grown hair.
I honestly don’t know why I had my hair snipped shorter. The words tumbled out of my mouth before I could properly think about them I suppose.

And I was also so bo chap (or more like pseudo-ing to be bo chap) that I anyhow chose the dye color.

Radhiah’s already helped me put in some lowlights and highlights (which I can’t really see as most of them are at the back of my head; or so she claims) to give it more character last night (:

She told me this while doing my hair:

“Teacher Leila (a hairdresser who used to work at Jean Yip and who also trained at the Jean Yip academy) said that your hair wasn’t cut very well”

To which I retorted back, “Excuse me and this coming from someone who gave me alien-cut fringe before?”

I find that I look better with long-ish hair in terms of when it is translated on camera. Even if I have a great short do, when I take photos, the great short do doesn’t exactly look great.

Especially so now with the metal in my mouth as they make my jaw look enlarged. So I kinda end up looking not totally proportionate.
Go figure.

Thus I now vow to grow out my hair.
And to go back to Din who even though didn’t do my hair as lovingly as Winnie, was the one to advised that I grow long hair.
Heh heh…

I’m less conscious about my hair now though.
Cos a few colleagues kindly commented that the hair color really suits me and so does the cut. One even mentioned that she thought I was very versatile cos I could suit many different kind of styles.
(:

On the Friday I rushed down to Strip for my waxing appointment.
I made it there in record time.
10mins from Toa Payoh to Wheelock during the evening rush hour. Brava.

After the quick and fuss-free wax, I made my way to City Hall to meet Mai and his gang of schoolmates + their other halves. One of them was celebrating their birthday.
I more or less made them my baggage counter really, cos upon reaching, I basically sat myself down and stood up again a few minutes later, chucked my bags there and sashayed off to the manicurists’.

Because, the nail on my right thumb broke massively.
It didn’t exactly break then. It already was broken about a week before from over-exertion (I always opened the charge outlet on my mobile with that nail) and it would’ve been too heart wrenching to clip of my nail so I thought I could just cover it up with many many coats of nail polish and wait for the nail to grow out.

Obviously that plan didn’t work out and now I have a slightly oversized nail.

I also bought myself some nail art stickers, glitter and rhinestones!
This is like my new favorite hobby – to decorate my nails myself. Exciting and thrilling.
They even gave me a free set of 3D nail art stickers cos I had enough chops on my card. So aunty.

Can't really see cos it's too bling bling (: but there's a gorgeous purple 3D nail art with glitter in green, yellow and pale blue called Garden Paradise with a drop a rhinestone on each nail (:

This sudden pastime was ever since a few months ago when I first bought rhinestones and nail art stickers and found some Anna Sui ones (which are very hardy, I might add) at home.
Personalizing my own design on my own nails.

I notice that I tend to choose around the same shades/tones when painting my nails.
Purple, Red, Turquoise-ish blue, Hot Pink…

Human beings are creatures of habit.

O_o

Mai and I caught Prince Caspian Saturday night at Lido.
The tickets were all taken at the nearby Cineleisure and GV outlets – and the only reason I agreed to watch Prince Caspian was because the other options were either Indiana Jones (no thank you very much) or Sex and the City(!!).

It was surprisingly good, regardless of the one too many cheesy moments.
Better than Harry Potter in fact.
And it didn’t hurt that Ben Barnes is better eye candy than Dan Radcliffe.

Note: I totally am not a Potter fan thus the biasness regarding this subject.

I Do wanna catch Sex and the City though but only After I complete the series.
I am still only at Season 4 but that’s cool cos there’re only 8 eps in Season 5 anyway so before I know it I’m sure I’ll complete the whole series.

It’s also a good thing that I didn’t catch it early cos I ended up getting free passes to the show!!
*says thanks to Channel 60 aplenty

I don’t get why people must go gossip gossip to others to say that one looks so free and such like no job to do etc.
If they have time to gossip like this doesn’t it mean that They are also so free like they’ve got nothing to do.
Bah~

I fumbled quite a bit in class on Tuesday :(

.Catch a Fire.

2008-05-24T22:55:00.007+08:00

Last night was really really great cos almost everyone made it!
It was more than a month in the making - Jo and I constantly having to remind the crew and the having to convince them to go as well...
Hehe..

We headed there first for the private party which was from 8 to 10, after which the doors opened for the public.

There were free drinks galore, but I didn't really drink that much cos I wasn't that interested and was there more for the company!!! :)

Courtesy of polaroid photo-takers (who also doubled up as the 'angelic' dancers)

The music was cool and abso-fab!
They started off with some of the floor staff banging away on some instruments and then came the dancers - angels without wings - all dressed in white and the girls were in super short tutus.

They kept pulling at people from the crowd to the dancefloor and I unfortunately became one of the victims.
The guy tried to pull me over before but I managed to evade and stay put at our table but wasn't so lucky the second time though.

It was honestly, awful!
I totally forgot how to dance the moment I was there. Froze I did. I just shimmy-ed and sashay-ed here and there for a bit before ciao-ing.
=/

But the dancer was nice enough about it.

Then soon enough the rest of the crew came streaming in...
and so the rolling good times began!

And here are the photos to Wednesday's impromptu clubbing at O Bar...

It was supposed to be just a night of chilling and taking advantage of ladies night at Md Sultan which obviously, evolved into something more.
Heh.

There was a time when female clubbers would hit a ladies night club first - for the free drinks - before heading off to their actual destination that doesn't offer any of the same perks (read: Zouk).

But I suppose with the new generation, being more hand-fed with bigger allowances and such it doesn't really matter much to them.

But alas,
I still am from the days of yore and I honestly do, like it that way very much.
Simple-y-do-da-deyyy..

Andd,
the current music selection at O Bar/dblO (when they're playing RnB/Hip Hop) are so much better than Phuture's nowadays.

I do really like Phuture though...
:(

.be Sedated.

2008-05-23T09:32:00.003+08:00

For someone (quite) short, I have an incredibly (what I deem to be) long neck.

Therefore in some photos my head looks detached from my body as I lean towards another for a pose.
=/

And therefore while dancing sometimes I feel angled and that my head looks so awkward and unrelaxed.
Sighs~

But then...
After hitting the dancefloor in a club for awhile a few days back, a question from a random stranger totally lifted my spirits and squashed whatever thoughts I had of resembling a flamingo when dancing.

"Are you a dancer?"

WOOTwootWOOTwoooottt.

Well I'm working on it, and I think it to be totally dandy to have dance as a vocation and that I'm getting my money's worth :)

I shall (try to) practice harder and more.
Totally need to get myself re-flexed and whatnot cos I have so lost a major load of flexibility.
Hur hur..

I like-y dancing, really.
All the swirls, twirls and whirls and whatnot..

Another one positive thing to come out of having this lean long neck was a comment by a Junior of mine in Secondary School:

"I wish I had a neck like yours!
They look so line-free and smooth..."

:)

Then again, that was in Secondary School and by now a line or two has appeared. And so I regularly moisturise my neck with Clinique's Dramatically Different Moisturizing Lotion.

Ahh.. To be oh-so-vain.

.catch a Fire.

2008-05-22T17:20:00.005+08:00

How easily do people get the boot?

For how long does a company ‘build up a case’ to rationalize and support their decision that would deem one eligible for such a (disgraceful) dismissal?

I personally thought it was getting better attitude-wise and such.
Apparently, and unfortunately, I’m the only one who thinks so.

Well we now have an opening for a Producer (Content-Editing).
If you think taking out nasty bits and ensuring a movie is clean (of vulgarity) is your calling, feel free to try out.

There are two ways of doing a job – properly, or not at all.

So I’ve attempted to settle the dispute of yesterday.

I kindly informed stalker guy that we won’t be meeting up and in response, he had the audacity to claim that my bf is controlling my social circle of friends and that I should get a grip of myself.

Like as though he knows us and the relationship so well.

So again, I kindly informed him that it’s about respecting others’ feelings as well. And if he (stalker guy) was attached and was receptive to his gf passing her number to a male stranger and meeting him again, then that’s him.
Not everyone is as receptive and we’ve got to respect that.

I was quite peeved by that time.

And he then apologized and stated that this was a clear example of one man’s meat being another man’s poison.

Beg to differ, I do.
Whatever.

Namecards are coming my way!

Finally.

After the many continuous refusals.

.be Sedated.

2008-05-21T19:56:00.002+08:00

So we were just lying tranquil on the sand, and a thought hit me:

Vesak Day last year we went to the beach too!
And also headed down to the Tanjong Beach stretch where we found a pleasant patch under an umbrella-ish thingy, but soon enough moved to Km8 after the rain stopped and the munchies came.

Same, same :)

The crowd really came that Monday.
But not that bad it was at Tanjong Beach to dampen our spirits :)

It was also one of the rare times that I slathered my arms and legs with sunblock. Thinking about liver spots and how the sun is so drying for one’s skin really got to me, I suppose.

…my hands were the only things I couldn’t hide. No amount of creams, acupuncturists or peels could hide the liver spots nor truly reveal my age. And when I pinched and pulled at a bit of flesh of the back of my hand, I watch in horror as it slid back into place.
Gone are the days when they would snap back instead…

But not enough to deter me from the beach.
Heh heh…

Tanjong Beach is also known for being a ‘doggy’ beach. And true enough, there were many in action ranging in breeds.
*Cute*Cute*Cute*

One miniature dog even managed to stray from its owners and started kay poh-ing around our stuff and the hair on our heads.

I thought somebody was trying to pull our tops and bags away from us.
=/

Later in the evening, while we were enjoying our sinfully msg-filled instant noodles, Mai and I witnessed Mats stealing water guns from the 7Eleven store at Palawan.
I’m embarrassed to admit that I turned a blind eye and did not do anything about it.

The sky was dark and the Mats were in a big group.
Some were doing the stealing while the rest waited outside. If we did do anything, at most the staff might apprehend them for awhile. And who’s to say that after that the Mats won’t come looking for us for payback?

Yes, I am being such a mouse about this.
A Practical mouse.

Nonetheless,
if anything of the like were to happen and I bear witness to it again, I vow to attempt to be a good Samaritan and do something about it.

Errr…
Or try really really really hard to do something about it.

Heh.

Enough about Monday.
Today, I had a (friendly) stalker. A second time in a lifetime happening.

While getting off the coach,
a guy stops me and introduced himself.

Apparently, while on the way to Tanjong Pagar for work, he chanced upon me in the train and decided to follow me.
All the way as I rushed down the escalator and anxiously waited for the traffic light to turn green so I can dash off and catch my coach.

How glam.

And only got the nerve to speak to me when the coach reached its destination.

I was freaked out, definitely (he now knows where I work!!), but he seemed friendly enough and not like the sleazy, psycho kind.
All I know about him is that he is awaiting enrollment into NUS and his name.

The whole thing reminded of another almost similar incident. It was about 2 years ago, and the guy who’d been sitting across from me in the train apparently followed me as I walked home.

I was walking relatively at a fast pace, listening to the songs on my MP3 and randomly singing along as and when I desired.

It was at night, cold wind all round and, just peaceful basically.

Then, during a break in one of the songs, I thought I heard someone calling for me. True enough, as I apprehensively turned around, I saw the guy running towards me.
Panting, he tried to explain himself as best as possible without wanting to sound like a despo and in return, I told him:

“Sorry, I’m attached (which wasn’t true at that time). No thanks.”

So thinking back to that incident, and my resolve to be friendlier and come off as someone who will talk to anybody with no discrimination (cos I know I tend to look dao, and pretty fierce – especially when I’m not smiling/happy-looking), I decided to approach the situation differently this time.

I gave stalker guy my number, informed him that I’m attached and intend to stay that way – with the current partner – and if he wants to meet up, it will only be possible under a group setting.
Of which group, shall only consist of My friends.

Also considering that this was something like how Jo and I got to know Sadat.
He was working at Momo as a server during his NS years and started chatting with us. And before you know it, we are now all pretty good friends and he hangs out comfortably with the group on Fridays at Timbre (and wherever else we may be).
And that was just over a year ago.

But all in all,
it seemed to be the wrong approach still.

Because...

Upon telling Mai of the incident over lunch, he went ballistic.
Started pushing my hands away and snapping at me.

I totally get where he’s coming from, but his reaction is akin to me committing some grave carnal sin and his giving threats, are crossing the line – especially for such a (what I deem to be) menial matter cos what we’re arguing over is literally a nobody of importance at all.

I have no intention whatsoever of dating or hanging out individually with stalker guy and have no qualms to dropping him from my contact (phone) list and never hearing from him again ever.

But of course,
none of that would have passed through to him at that point in time.

No point in senseless arguements is there.
But I admit, it was my bad to have passed on my number (to a stranger) without thoroughly considering the feelings of Mai and assuming that he'll be cool with it.

Whatever will be, will be.
<3

.catch a Fire.

2008-05-18T00:43:00.003+08:00

Where for art thou, trucker cap..

And so here I am, sitting alone while he frolicks outside at some field in the wee hours of the A.M.
*smirk.smirk.smirk.

A long time coming it is, and a long time coming it has been since I've heard a family member siding me and seeing my side of reason.
And the awesome feeling expected didn't fail me as I thank the stars that I am not the only sane, practical (at times, or when befitting) one around here. Or just at home lar. Heh.

It really truly gives me much sense of joy and peace of mind.

Until knowledge of an unfortunate situation came to light. Immediately shooting the sense of joy/peace of mind out the door and cause much distress. To the directly-affected and me.
I hope it can all be managed well.

One fall, and we all fall. It's not just about I, but it is ALWAYS about a team, us, we.

More than one entity, basically. And I couldn't sound more tacky.
=S

A new balancing act will be sought out.
Which I'm sure I will manage with certain ease - not before tripping over now and again.

I will provide her all the help, no matter what :)

This will really be a tough nut though.
Wow.

I should cease talk of depressing stuff pronto.

Recently I've bumped into LL twice on the streets. Twice within the duration of 3 days.
Is this a sign?
I think so..
I've always believed that not everything is as coincidental as they are. ~~Everything~~ Most things happen for a reason. Or for many reasons.

Read the signs,
You'll find things fine..

The unexpected epiphany :)

I've also got myself a new toy.
Some random Panasonic Vacuum Cleaner. Of all things. And no matter how much easier it would be to throw and replace a dustbag, I got one with a plastic (wash-able being the key word) container instead.

Read: Eco-friendly

And I am all ready to re-decor my room.
After 5 years of the same colored walls staring back at me, I am ready.
Lol.

Defying Radhiah's protests, I threw her bed out (and graciously informed her that she could sleep on mine in the meantime while I sleep on the cold, hard floor) in the meantime.

Babysteps.

Thinking about this will probably distract me from the main problem-issue too.

New color, new bed, new furniture.
Fresh change.

:)

.be Sedated.

2008-05-13T11:04:00.004+08:00

Hat-head action

I spy with my (slitty) little eyes…
A totally Cheena man with his work pass hanging on a blue lanyard around his neck of which his particulars are stated; and his nationality is listed as British National.
-_-

Oh the little things (one does) on a crowded train that make a morning less
dreary and keep my mind off the grogginess felt.

Cheena man reminded me of a colleague I once had whilst working as a Sales Associate (hehe) at Bossini who also holds British nationality.
The ironic thing was…
She isn’t the least bit Ang Moh – her parents are Hongkies and she is quite very Ah Lian. Her parents strategically planned to give birth to her in the UK instead of their native Hong Kong just so she can get their nationality and then come back after they’re done with the birth.

It was during that period that saw plenty of pregnant Asians scheming their way
to the US or UK and thus the airlines became stricter regarding pregnant people
on planes.

I don’t get it.
What’s the big deal and what does it matter where your child is born?
They’re all still here anyway – within the Asian region – and nowhere near living at their birthplace.

Anyway, the man in front of me totally does not have any evidence of Ang Moh lineage whatsoever and his name is totally Cheena.
Could at least put in the effort of having an official Ang Moh name right… Since thy parents already put in so much effort to give birth to him in the UK.

Then my eyes settled upon a 40-ish lady who at first glance, I thought was pregnant. But after scrutinizing further, I had suspicions that she might just look that way.
There was some major double-chin action going on.

And she didn’t really do the whole “rub hand over belly” thing that pregnant people tend to do.

So I ended not giving up my seat to her, as ready as I was to since I was getting off soon anyway, lest she feels offended that I thought she was pregnant and she’s not then that would mean I’m indirectly implying that she’s f.a.t.

Then I would be totally mortified.
=/

The above photo is a result of a too lovely recent public transport experience.

Bought on the evening of the morning that some be-yotch kindly stepped on my gold slippers and a strap totally detached itself from my slipper and as a result, rendered them useless.

It didn’t help at all that I just stood there stunned and staring at my feet for a good few minutes as the be-yotch skipped away into the train before I can tear her hair out.

There was absolutely no time for me to backtrack home and it was too early for shoe shops to be open.

At least she mumbled a can-barely-hear apology.
Right.

Note to self: Should an event like this re-occur, grab on to suspect, point to
evidence, and demand for compensation (with a smile)

Trudged my way through work, then trudged to town and within the short timeframe of 15mins, snagged myself these pair of sandals.
Had to meet Mai, you see, and I wanted to spare him the horror of finding out the exorbitant price tag.
=S

Locally (ripped-off, more likely) designed and from a local brand.

Them sandals have got some bondage action going on :)
At least if anybody stepped on them and a strap broke, there’ll still be more holding them together.

Many straps are better than one is better than none.
Hah.

When I step into my sandals
Make a lady wanna hey
Feelin' high feelin' low
Caught up in the black hey
Everything is beautiful
Mother fuckin' feelin' great
When I step into my sandals
Make a lady
Wanna go crazy

.catch a Fire.

2008-05-12T16:45:00.002+08:00

Waaaaa....
I can't wait to go Wasabi Tei!!!!

No matter how grouchy the owner, ladyboss a.k.a staff may be.

Any other takers?
:)

*holla

.be Sedated.

2008-05-12T00:02:00.005+08:00

And I have finally completed a really really rough draft of a semblance of a blogskin.

Never really knew what sorta elements I want to put inside and so I basically input whatever I could grab.
There was a time limit - had to get out of the house to meet loverboy.
:)

Will perhaps re-do a more orderly one another time.

We caught Control yesterday.
The much-hyped movie about the lead singer of Joy Division - who hung himself at the age of 23, just before the band was to depart on their first U.S tour.

The movie, as a whole, was a tad disappointing.
Save for the commendable acting and some funnies here and there. It still managed to be provocative as well.
Quite tragic, really...

Joy Division's songs are not bad, btw.

I have also quickly gotten a blusher replacement from M.A.C called Blushbaby (sounds so bimbo aye) and along the way to the cashier my itchy fingers reached out to the Viva Glam Lipglass.
=/

I just hope Radhiah doesn't have the same shade cos I only remembered that she has one as well After I bought mine.

And turns out that my usual blush tone, Prism, has been discontinued. Thus the new blush, baby (geddit? lol).

Radhiah and I tend to share our make-up. And hair products (which is pretty kool cos Radhiah has all the lobangs to get us Kerastase shampoo minus the marked-up price). And accessories. And nail polish (mainly hers). Heh.
Since we tend to buy quite a handful and don't exactly religiously use them all the time. Our too small room and cupboard are running out of space.

HELP!!

Between the both of us,
we seem to have a kicky love affair with M.A.C.
Majority of our stuff is from M.A.C.
Lol.

And it's too bad that their glittery eye liner range was only available during the X-mas season. I adore them to bits.
I'll make sure that they last a darn long time though.
Fo' real.

But I still prefer Anna Sui compact cos it has this awesome floral scent :)

Which reminds me...
I'll probably get my Anna Sui compact back from Joline - after 2 months of selfless loaning (heh heh..) - since she's already got her M.A.C compact re-filled.

Thailand with Jo and Ren looks set to be postponed :(
But that's alright...
Cos the end result is that we Will still go together. It's just a matter of when.

C.Y also out of the blue facebook-chatted with me and we talked about really random things.
My last memory of him is of when he was sending us home after a night of DblO where Diana (Jo's NYP-mate) and I played the songs from my mobile and hollered along to it.
Heh heh...

That was damn shiok :)

I can't wait for tomorrow (first lesson! *nervous/scared shitless) and for May 23 y'all! Where we shall all congregate together at one of our favourite-yet-seldom-gone-to-nowadays haunt.

Par-Tay like a rockstar! :)

I *love*love* the weekends now.
Truly, really, very.

I can catch up with so many things (chores included) and I especially enjoy it all the more when he isn't working so that we can then go date, date.
:)))

I'm gonna re-do my hair again.
Hur hur..

Mov-eeee

2008-05-07T18:39:00.002+08:00

I suppose it is pretty apt that I am working in a company dealing with movies.

I am such a movie buff!
And realisation has only just hit.
=/

On average I watch more than 5 movies in a month.
(Is that considered a lot though?)

And that's not counting the movies that I sometimes watch at work.
Heh heh...

Iron Man is really absolutely fab btw.
And Robert Downey Jr. is utterly delish!
He so snazzy...
:)

SATC the Movie is coming out soon!
And I've yet to complete watching all the eps.

Apparently the plan of bringing SJP down for the opening was considered. But totally thrown out the window when one her request was to be flown by private jet =/

Our budget is limited okayyy....

Waiting also for these movies I am....

SPEED RACER

Christina Ricci's character is so adorable!

CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC

Starring Isla Fisher as the ditzy Becky Bloomwood.

PUBLIC ENEMIES...
The update with Johnny Depp, Christian Bale & Channing Tatum!

My favorite leading men!!
*swoon*swoon*swoon*

Actually most of the movies I'm waiting for are only coming out in 2009.
So ermmm...

Yeah.

I need to get back to present-making lest it's not ready in time.
And I still have yet to get that passport-sized photo.

I need a new blusher too.
Mine got flung out of my M.A.C make-up bag while I was rushing up an escalator at the insistence of Mai.
=S

Ermmm...
Really need to get back to stuff.
Lol.

Amazing how things can bite one in the back yars.

2008-05-04T14:26:00.001+08:00

Friday was awesome,
and managed to catch up with Kelly as well :)

I haaavvveeee....
Got myself a new pair of sneakers.
Oyster sheen I liiiike :)

All prepped up I am!
And to wear in them sneakers, I suppose I'll have to wear them for the whole of next week -_-"

Foreigners who come to our teeny island in search of jobs should pick their ass up and learn English - especially if they're in the service line.
They shouldn't expect us to all know Mandarin, Malay, or whatever it is dialect.

We're not the ones adapting to them.
THEY should be adapting to us since They came Here.

Does the government not have any English proficiency test of some sort or something?

Woooo

2008-04-30T18:00:00.003+08:00

Hard Candy was noootttt bad.
Kool that Jo managed to come :)

And even kool-er that they had these huge-ass lollies!!

There were Muay Thai girl fights.
Of which got boring when suspicions of fixed matches were aroused.

She gave the slightest of nods, after which her opponent seemed to then deliver a calculated kick towards her.

And so we cam-whored a bit.

The outfit that cost me a $148 bomb.

Madonna has made it difficult for the rest of us, but even if I gave myself another five years I'd never be able to fit into that bloody leotard.
-George Michael

Weird weird weird dreams have plagued Jo and I the past few days.
Those that felt so real and very vivid.

Why is that.

She bang

2008-04-27T17:49:00.003+08:00

So much for planning the budget.
I have skimmed the edges of it as I massively-spent over the weekend and am now the proud owner of a flaming orange Nike Women’s sports bra, silkily elegant Miss Selfridge dress, a flirty champagne-bubblegum colored Cacharel dress, printed fire-engine red Tommy Hilfiger top, ruched silk Calvin Klein spags in gumpowder grey, and 2 spunky tops from Diesel’s sister brand 55dsl.

Nonetheless,
I am confident that I Will survive. As I have through trying times aplenty.

So the drama.

Most of the errands have been run.
Registration, fee payment… purchasing the necessary…

Course starts May 13.
YAY!

Activation of the new Citibank plastic (rebates! rebates!); though I still have to call them to correct my salutation on the useless but-they-still-insist-on-giving cheque.

I’m a Mr. with a Binte to them.

Either they’re that dense, or they have totally no idea of the Malay name system – that Bin is for males and Binte is for females.

Main errand left is to find myself the perfect pair of sneakers or sportshoe.
I think.

Oh yes!
And to collect all certs, take passport-sized photo etc for submission.
*Study study (not so soon) for me!

I’ve been adorning myself with my collection of caps during this trying time of waiting for my hair to grow out.

And my cube neighbour has done the same – wearing a cap to work!
Lol.

Started a trend we have.

Hairdressers tend to enjoy giving me bangs. And weird-ish styles.
I swear it’s probably the high forehead of mine.

But ever since Mervyn the quite good-looking hubby of the not-that-attractive Jean Yip did my hair for that hair show and said that my features were sharp/strong and could carry off crazy styles did I understand better and notice that hairdressers in general tend to give me edgy cuts that are such a bitch to maintain if you don’t live/work in a salon.

I prefer wearable, healthy-looking and easy to style dos, thank you many much.

Have to admit, that it is pretty cool and you get that awesome feeling each time you see yourself with a different hairstyle.

And of which said feeling usually lasts only for like 2 weeks average

O_o

Well, this current stylist says he wants me to keep long hair and thus I was left with layers aplenty, with the length untouched.
And of course, bangs.

The outcome of a bored transition period between Garon’s church wedding and the after-party in the evening.

Have also decided to partake in the DnD planning and preparation for this year with the usual khakis.

Should be fun, yeah…
With the suggested theme being the 80’s.

Majority of the staff can all relive their teenage years of which things such as Madonna Miami Vice, Michael Jackson – thriller era – etc etc ruled the arena.

Proactively I have been submitting possible locations and offered myself up as de-facto poster and the like in-charge.
:)

I loike.

Hard Candy she-bang at Zouk is Tuesday night.
*Excited!*

Charco's?

2008-04-21T21:43:00.004+08:00

AMK's Botak Jones has been replaced with another Western worth-your-money eatery of which name I can't remember.

But it is definitely Delish!
Delightfully delectable and I dare say is better than Botak Jones.
Less msg.

Doesn't mean I don't miss Botak Jone's huge-arse burgers though. Heh heh..

<3

More focused at work I have been.
Lapses notwithstanding for my stuff's always completed on time.

But there's still that nagging feeling.
A different kind though now.

Gonna plan out May budget now.

Shucks.

Bulletin

2008-04-20T18:05:00.004+08:00

I've been thinking again about whether to start studying sooner or later. Utterly indecisive and constantly impatient.

It keeps getting more and more delayed, I feel.
A tough wait for a person who wants things to happen NOW.

But yes,
I do agree with him that it is more feasible, and practical for me to get the later commencement date.

He has also begun thinking of the possibilities and opportunities for after poly.
Australia, SMU, Japan...
Various options, each with their own pros and cons. Only one to choose from though.

No matter what the decision, I shall be behind him the whole way.
So vex-ing isn't it.

Constantly wondering and hoping that there would never be regrets with the choices you choose and make.
Especially when it has to do with your life and might be the catalyst to how your life will turn out.

But it is all entirely exciting still.

Jo and I got to hang out again last night.
Though I felt it wasn't for that long.

Hopped, skipped and jumped our way from Zouk to Mos and then to dblO.

Which reminded me a bit of how we used to constantly club hop, just the both of us - and Crazy Sarah here and there - when we were much more energised bunnies.

Batteries overused - can't last as long no more =/

Glad for Fridays I am.
And glad that I am still within the $50 weekly budget :)

I like dreams.
They keep you motivated most times.

When you dream big, the happiest and most fulfilling moments are the processes and things you go through to get to the end result.
The end result, should be the one providing you with the sense of accomplishment. And contentment.

Even if not all aspects of your 'big dream' and only a handful of them are achieved.

Not everyone can get everything after all, no?
So we should just be appreciative of what we Do get and not sulk about the things that might have slipped through our fingers.

Remember that there are more things to come.
Even if you're an old fogey.
:)

Stupefied

2008-04-16T09:21:00.005+08:00

If more often than not you keep getting/feeling betrayed by your family.
What should the first line of thought/action be?

I've always put too much faith in things changing for the better. Especially with everyone of us growing up and maturing (sans Mum since she seemed to have stopped maturing ages ago).

Comes with the territory.
Optimists have too much faith most times - which should Never be considered as a bad thing.

But I keep getting disappointed still.
No matter how many times nor how much I try to take hold of (what seems to be) the last strands of hope.

Given up on the situation with Mum I have (for now), but it is so disheartening to think of the situation with my siblings as being that way too - a lost cause.

And I won't.
Will not take that line of thought.
No matter how I really was so thoroughly disappointed last night.

I'll just take better care and be a tad more wary and careful; with concealing temptations especially.

Grateful I am for the help and solace you provided.

Ultimately though, even as your intentions and words mean no harm nor offense, it is I and not you in this situation (and family) and thus it is okay if you are unable to fully fathom my actions and faith in them.

P.S: No one's gonna do it for you. So you gotta put a lot of belief in a lot of things (optional) yourself.

I am woman.
Hear me ROAR.

Focus

2008-04-13T09:27:00.005+08:00

First Day of school (for Mai) that was marred by an accident at the tracks of CCK.

Colleague celebrating her last day before moving on to AXN.

The boss now hovering over thy shoulder.
Darn the naggy planner(s) and pointing fingers.

Weekdays isolated with not much of a social life.

But the weekends made it all alright :)

With the usual gather of us.
Play with the Kung Fu Stunt Double/Dancing Diva.
Sidddiggg coming along (for a bit).

And the clique of us.
Wearing the belated Xmas gift from Karen togetherrrss.
The Little Miss-ys.

But Little Miss Splendid was missing though..
Some meeting outside :(

Jeff and I also finally met up again.
Caught The Other Boleyn Girl (fab! extravagant!) and also caught up on what's been going on.

Natalie Portman is utterly gorgeous and captivating!

After like more than a whole year of not meeting.
And thus we agreed to set the SOP of meeting every 3 months, with the next being in JULY after his Commissioning Ball.

A great guy pal he is; who exhibits some girlie traits of being finicky among others. Heh heh..

Straight as an arrow still :)

I hope I don't feel too much like I'm going through the motions at most times.
And fulfillment...

I want the sense of fulfillment that stays and not falter now and again.

Then again...

You are only as satisfied (or not) as you think you are.
Now I'm only still building foundations and that takes time.

Patience has to be set in.

It's gonna be a long wait and I better brace myself for unwelcome surprises.

Re-focusing is of almost fully accomplished.
And I shan't doubt myself.
No one should ever doubt themselves cos that's one way how people tend to falter.

Ta-da!

2008-04-05T16:38:00.002+08:00

If all goes well,
I'll be studying in a few months.

And the closer I will be to my goal.
The other goal..

Will have to wait.
Til next month perhaps. Of which I will be such a beginner.

How exciting!

Mai has succumbed and got himself an iPod.
$388 for 80G which is a pretty great deal.

And the black MacBook is sweeeett.

Dream Big

I have gone through the first week with my $50/week allowance successfully (and may there be more successes to come) but I doubt there'll be much leftover for me after all the deductions =/

Still...

I await the future with undaunted passion.

No matter what challenges that come my way.

hope

2008-03-31T20:27:00.003+08:00

Garon's wedding was amazing.
And his bride, Lynn, looked so beautiful.

It really is that the bride is so beautiful on her wedding day that nobody can even attempt to compete with her.

But it got us all real tired.
Totally knackered from the morning church wedding at Chartwell to the after-party at Kulau Beach Bar.

Where Garon serenaded Lynn with a rockin' song from New Order that was so lovely and sweet without being mushy!

Zouk's flea market which was in lieu with the Singapore Fashion Festival was not too bad.

Heard that there was a massive queue and I thanked my lucky stars that I came around 5pm and not in the early 2's.

It seemed like any other flea market though.
And I really managed to get gRRRreeat deals.

Spent only $37 and got 2 dresses - one of which was Max&Co., 2 tops, a pair of 3-quarts, and a pleated skirt from FCUK.

Jo also had a fab time - I think. Lol.

Isn't it amazing the amount of fab stuff you can get without having to splurge.
Simply cheap and still chic.

Charlie Bartlett was not too shabby either.
Rock, rock, rockin'..

And now comes the time to stay home on most weekdays.
Budget is really tight.
Fees to pay, money to loan, necessities to buy.

I really wish one day I'll be daring enough to honestly go for what I believe in.
To enjoy life as much as I can and not tie myself down to a single cubicle.

I'd live on part-time jobs - albeit only those I'd enjoy - if I could, but unfortunately that is not the case here.

No money, really no honey.
No roof over your head either without incurring jackass loans that come with obscene interest rates.

Still...

I wait for the day when I'll be brave enough to take the leap and live life like it should be lived.

That day will come closer faster the earlier I get my degree.

I'm really not able to be tied.

We are only young once.

ONCE.

Familia? More like lack thereof

2008-03-27T17:40:00.004+08:00

My sisters will always ask me why I bother talking back or acknowledging what my Mother says when she's angry and in a foul mood and I’ll always reply that it’s cos I don’t like that she’s blaming me all the time for things I’m innocent of.

If I don’t speak up for myself, who will?

Irregardless of all the pain she might have gone through to bear me and how much I might sound like an ungrateful sod,

And as envious as I am of others lucky to have a blessed relationship with their Mothers/Parents..

I have long come to accept that this is the way my relationship with my Mother will be - strained, full of wary, and weary.

Acceptance is key.

Even with no semblance of a proper family bond nor sense of belonging in the family as a whole,
I don't feel like I've lost out in any way.

I have accepted the situation that I am in and choose to look at it as a blessing in disguise.

For without it, and without the situations that come with the tearing apart of a family and it's financial woes that seem to be never-ending even til now, I might not be as strong as I believe I have become.

Whenever I'm faced with something, I remind myself that there are others who are in situations worse than I - no matter how dire my situation might be.

Because that is the truth.

And because it helps.

I would hate to be a person who wavers easily when faced with a situation or dilemma.

And I am glad that even with all the plague-ing problems and troubles,
I can still get myself to be fully optimistic.

We should all be open rays of sunshine.
Not hiding behind masks (or eyebags =X) all the time.

Give thanks

2008-03-22T16:07:00.002+08:00

I'm thankful for my two working feet
And thankful for all other working limbs
Thankful that I can wash myself
Need no one to help me clean

Saw a wheelchair-ed fella the other night.
By himself queuing and being refused entry to Mos.

After which he moved on to a map of Clarke Quay to find out where else can he go.

At any point in time there could be a sudden accident and that could be me, you, us in a wheelchair as well.

Thankful I am also for the lovelies.
And the gang.

The simplest of pleasures are usually the best.

I should remind myself more often of that.

Bkk

2008-03-21T14:10:00.001+08:00

So it is back to sunny Singapore.
Thanks to Mai for bringing his luggage and thus enabling me to dump my goodies there (:

I miss Thailand already ):

Or maybe it's just the not working and just slacking/shopping/holiday-ing that I really miss =/

Final count,

17 dresses
11 tops
6 bras
1 bikini
2 wedges
2 heels
1 goldie slipper
2 girlie sneakers
3 bags
2 handbags/clutches
1 pair of long pants
1 pair of shorts
1 skirt
6 hairbands
20 bangles/bracelets
8 necklaces
1 strawberry face mask
1 body scrub
2 sunnies
12 pairs of earrings
1 vibrant green crochet cardi
1 Clinique face wash
3 hats - including a pale cyan cowboy hat (Heh heh..)

I think that's about it.

I'd have gotten more had 2 shops not closed when I went back and had a shop have my size for a most delectable purple bejewelled pair of slippers that I totally didn't mind forking 950 baht for.

There were jokes aplenty, with a certain lobster fruit salad being joke of the trip, and compliments from random locals and tourists too.

There was even a Jack Sparrow lookie!
Really looks like the real deal, I swear!

We covered the Pratunam area and all the usual areas of Chatuchak Market, Khao San Rd, Suan Lum Night Bazaar, Siam Central and Paragon and Ben's old friend, MBK.

Managed to catch Step Up 2 there one night and Ben proclaimed that he's gonna start buying himself some hoodies and baggy tees.
*Rolls my eyes times aplenty.

And even with the many days that we were there, we missed out on visiting Patpong, Yaowarat, Emporium and Playground :(

Probably cos we revisited Suan Lum and Platinum cos we weren't satisfied from the first visits there and wanted more stuff.
LOL

Didn't even have much time to visit Haikal either.
And with Nate constantly forgetting to pass Haikal's number to me or his restaurant's name, it was even more difficult to find his restaurant.

Only know that it's in the Chit Lom area and each time the BTS passes Phaya Thai I'll constantly be looking out and pointing out his apartment to Mai.
Haha!

Mai and I also constantly got mistaken for a Thai couple by the randomest of people from stewardesses on both departing and arriving airplanes to locals and tourists wandering the streets of Bangkok asking us for directions.
=S

I wish to be back there and I will, actually. Heh heh..
Come June.

With the trip to Phuket for a short getaway at a luxurious villa - courtesy of Alex - I shall ensure that I can have a visit to Bangkok as well with that.

I hope to fly there more to satisfy my shopping desires.
Heh heh..

And I really, really hope to bring Radhiah and the little brother there.
It'll mean a lot to them.

It's so rare that they really get to shop - especially little bro and I have no idea what to get for him when I was there.
Don't know his size! And his taste is a bit err.. different? =/

Radhiah's now in Switzerland and it's snowing there, so she filmed it and said that she'll show it to me.
-_-"

And she also said she bought pretty earrings for me (:

I really really hope she can come to Bangkok with me.

2008-03-08T13:55:00.006+08:00

Thursday night started off with a trip to Thumper for FHM's Threesome party. It's a party to acquaint the crowd with this year's Girl Next Door's finalists.

The door biatch thought I was a contestant.

So paisehsss..

To sum it up,
it was pretty gawd-darned boring.

I thought Thomas might be there so I texted him.

"No I'm at work. I wish I was there though"

"Ermm actually you're better off staying at work. It is so boring here."

It was just people mingling and inside there were only 2 bartenders to serve shitloads of people. And the vodka smelled really really bad.

=/

One of the bartender was really friendly though.
Constantly smiling.

:)

I saw also a guy who resembled Thaksin!!

And word to the wise:

Don't park your bags at the baggage if you're there.
It is the most unsafest baggage counter Alicia, Mai and I have ever encountered.

Ever.

After that snoozer came the highlight of Thursday night for me :)

We had a Girly Affair!
With Jo, Gret, Alicia, Kav, Gillian and Sherryn.

Although Kav Did leave around 11-ish with her gal pals for Movida and too bad for Tammy and Risca for they missed out on the funnnnn..

:)

While we were on the way,
we witnessed an accident between 2 cabs that crashed head first into each other at the junction of Clemenceau Avenue and River Valley Road.

It gave us girls a massive fright,
and for a moment a thought that the vehicles might blow up and we might be thrown back from impact passed through my head.

So drama.

Never have I thought I'll witness an actual road accident.
Usually you just hear the squeal of tires as they skid, honks aplenty and that's it.

This time it was the squeal of tires, with smoke nontheless and as they crashed, there was a huge surge of bright lights to the extent of being almost blinding.

We literally stopped dead in our tracks although the green man flashed a couple of times for us to cross the road.
Jo whipped her phone out to call the police and an oldie man came out from one of the cabs, an arm clutched to his chest.

I swear I thought he was gonna have a heart attack, faint, and die.

Jo recounted her conversation with the officer.
He sounded bored and annoying.

"Is it safe to say that you are unsure if anyone is hurt?"
"I'm standing quite a distance a way so I can't really tell and they're in the Middle of a Junction!"

When we finally did tear ourselves from the scene and continued to make our way, we still couldn't stop talking about it.
How aunty of us.
Lol.

Gretel kept saying how relieved she was that no one seemed unconscious.
Else she'd have run to the site and started doing CPR in her floral dress and high heels.

That would've been quite a sight.
;)

The traffic police called Jo awhile later for more details cos apparently one of the drivers Was hurt.
Tsk tsk.

Alicia, who saw everything, would have to come down to a police station to officially make a statement.

And the lame-r than lame officer sms-ed something along these lines to her:

"Have fun tonight. Next time go club don't forget to jio me ah."

Sitting around in a police station must be really boring work eh.
Unless he's under NS lars which would explain the sms.

Can't imagine an oldie veteran police officer doing that.

There weren't that many people at DblO when we reached. But when we went to the loo and came out again, it was a different story.

When we were at the loo, there were a lot of femmes milling around and many vacant cubicles.
Thus the remark;

"Did they all (the crowd) come out from hiding in the toilet or something?"

The crowd wasn't that fantastic.
No, I take that back.

The crowd was not at All fantastic.

But who cares right.
Cos the company was fantastic. We were there to have a blast and not there to care about the crowd.

But something that you'd expect of a crowd such as that really did happen.
Gillian's fags got nicked.

And right at the time when we were scouring the floor for it,
a Mat in a trucker cap who's been sitting around our table went off.

Then re-appeared reeking of smoke, sat on the same stool and scooted the stool and himself over to another table closer to the dancefloor.

Omfg.
Rolling my eyes..

We ordered a whole mix of drinks from Lychee to Choya Martinis, Tequila shots aplenty, and many many beer - which tasted like calamari.

Go figure.

While deciding whether to get individual martinis or a jug of it..

I demanded, "How many lychees do you put in a jug of lychee martini?"
Server replies with a textbook answer of, "Err.. It varies..?"

"Okay then just make sure we get a lot of lychees kays!"

Whilst a non-straight female was taking a photo for us with Jo's phone..

She, "Eh the phone's vibrating!"

"Vibrating? Quick! Put it in your underwear!" comes my insta-quip.

-_-"

Sometimes my trying to be funny comes out with unintended hints of sarcasm.
Oh well.

The night out was reminiscent of when we used to have frequent trips to the clubs after work at Coriander.

I suppose working near clubs had a part to play with our frequent trips.

The best thing was the day after,
Jo calls and asks:

"Did I do anything really embarrassing/humiliating last night?"

She couldn't remember!!
Couldn't remember some parts only la but still.. Heh heh..

Should've cooked up a tale or something and really give her a fright til she goes red lobster bright :)))

Joline's supposed to be the better drinker amongst us.
In her defence, she claimed that she was mixing alot.

To which I retort that I also had the same drinks she had.
Most of us did, in fact.

We should have more girly outings!!

Hilarious.

Friday was a day of total relaxation for me.
Til night time came, that is.

I had the whole day off and then it was time to prep for my night out.

Met Mai at Bugis for dinner and then headed down to Timbre to meet the 'latest-would-be-gay' pairing of Sanjay and Dip.

Gretel's debit card ended up with me somehow from Thursday night and so I had to have it passed to Jo. Via Sanjay.

He commented that I look tan-er.
-_-"

Must've been the make up which made my tan from long ago stand out more and be more bronzed-looking.
A-hah!

It's great that now the clan meets up more regularly than before when we were all starting/searching for jobs and all.

Now that we've settled in to them, we're able to better save time for each other.
*lovely-ness

We left soon after for Zouk.
After attempting to convince them to head down to Zouk after Timbre and failing miserable that is.

At the Main Arena there was some breakdancing thing-y going on and the moves were bitchin'..
They were celebrating Flava's anniversary and thus were playing RnB there for that night.

Truly amazing it was.
Especially the guys from the Radikal Forze (?) group. I think that's what they're called, if I remember correctly.

And they were as short as they looked with they're lower than low-slung berms from an aeriel view.
Boy, could they move though.
*N.I.C.E.

I bumped into Amir, and the most unexpected person ever.
Jeffrey.

He who claims to never go clubbing etc etc.
Tsk tsk.

Came with his army mates, and proved why he is one of my bestest platonic guy friend again - he never looked at my chest.
When he speaks to me, he speaks to ME.

He said I look skinnier.
): Not good.
Cos Victor also once said I looked smaller.

Note to self: Must eat even More

Jeffrey looked shorter - or maybe it's cos I was wearing heels that he appeared shorter - and other than that, he was the same good ol' Jeff :)

He also keeps forgetting that I know Amir and keeps being shocked whenever I speak of Amir =/
And since they're both in the army,

I mentioned that I bumped into Amir awhile earlier and asked if they came together.

"Amir? No! He came alone la he!"

"But he told me he came with you guys leh.."

Lol.

Mai kept bumping into Primary School friends too.
(:

Zouk was more happening than Phuture but I quite liked the music they were playing at Phuture too.

The whole thing wasn't so much Mai's cup of tea though.
He doesn't like crowded clubs.

But if a club's popular, than the more it'll be crowded awhile and again right..
Funny he is (:

<3

Decision

2008-03-06T00:17:00.004+08:00

Serina's recently been faced with a dilemma that you thought would only come from the plot of a movie.

It is not my call to relay her dilemma here.

Coming to work with tell-tale signs of having spent the night in sobs and crying herself to sleep. And as she relays her tale, her body betrays her and she almosts succumbs to tears but fights it.

I admire her.
For she has to come to terms with things, make choices that might in many ways cause regret, for being brave amidst her dramatic situation.

As passe as this may sound,
she really does have many who care - partly cos she makes us care.

That said, no one wants a life that has regrets.
Of wishing they could turn back time to do something differently.

Decisions and the many road that life gives us really is a tricky thing.
Especially when the decisions you decide don't only affect you, but others as well.

Even still, it's part of a beautiful thing called life.

Meanings

2008-03-03T13:52:00.004+08:00

Last night I dreamt that I was struggling to breathe.
That my nostrils were getting clogged up and air was getting scarce.

But somehow I instinctively knew what to do in order to save myself. Which I did.

And then I woke up.

I frequently have such dreams, actually.
Of not being able to breathe and be gasping for breath.

But normally I wouldn't know what to do even though I'll keep telling myself that I'm not gonna bid adieu this way.

And then I'll wake up.

One other type of dream that I'll also usually have is of falling.
The scenarios are as such:

It's always either,

I'll be flying over the clouds and be looking down on Earth, admiring the
greenery and enjoying the feel of the wind caressing my face as I breeze
by.
And at the same time, there'll be this apprehension.

Why is it that I can fly and how exactly am I doing it?

Then begins the fall.
Abruptly I somehow am unable to fly anymore and so starts my descend
towards Earth.

Or,

I'll be climbing a tall HDB flat, or tall something..
And when I reach the top, I'll discover that the roof has a soft,
cushioned floor.

As you walk around exploring the roof, your feet slowly sinks in to the
floor and because of the cushioned floor, I trip and fall off the roof.

And as I fall, I feel that the sensations are as real as they can ever be.
The pressure, the air..
So strong and so vivid against my tense body as I prepare for impact as best as I could.

I also think about how I'll land.
The anxiety, anticipation.. Chokes me up as my heart begins to pound harder and harder.

Will I land with a thud? Will the ground beneath swallow me whole?

Rarely do I get an answer.

But recently,
like the dream of it getting harder to breathe,

I seem to be slowly overcoming this falling dream.

Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control

The last time I dreamt that I was falling,
I told myself...

"Don't be so uptight.
Can't you see that there's nothing to fear in this fall."

I wonder why I've always been afraid when I was falling. I start to see it as a beautiful thing.
Somehow I start to see it as me slowly merging with nature.

That the winds were still caressing me and were not, as I previously believed, slicing maliciously through me.
It became apparent to me..
That it isn't meant to be scary.

Slowly I relaxed and surrendered myself to the winds.. to nature.
I spread my limbs out and leaned farther and put a smile on my face.

Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold

Amazing how it is for these 2 dreams of a few years to evolve from being scary to peaceful, pleasant dreams.

I question the sudden change.
Has something shifted drastically in my life?

My thoughts? Mindset?
It definitely has to do with something that's been around for a really long time, for these dreams are not new.

The turn they have taken is though.

Time will tell and realisation will soon hit me.
I hope.

Financing

2008-03-01T11:02:00.020+08:00

Now that the whole wisdom tooth extraction and aching in pain segment is all over and done with,

I am able to better move on with my life and not keep gripe-ing about how smelly the thread is (as it was taken out Tuesday) and how it's the Cause of the stinging pain and not helping the least bit.

And I shan't worry so much about the gaping hole that is left for the dentist says that it takes a month for the 'hole' to cover itself up.

But the image of my teeth falling into the 'hole' as the braces moves it back in my mouth keeps popping in my head.

It's 2 more weeks until the trip to Bangkok and so far there has been..

1. 2 (false,but still) bomb scares on flights to Bangkok and

2. Thaksin is back

And with him being back, there is a possibility of rallies, protests whathaveyou which I Hope hope hope will have died down by the time we're there.

Like a bad omen =/

On the upside,
perhaps things will be even cheaper there due to the possible volatility/instability.

Nonetheless,
as said many times, I still am very excited for the holidays.

The tickets are bought, hotel booked..
All that's missing is us! :)

And speaking of holidays,
I'm thinking of forgo-ing Spain this year.
Apologies to Yasmin :(

But I Know you'll have a blast still even if I'm not there.
Heh heh..

So much for a snowy year-end.

In turn perhaps we can have a beach-y June/July with Jo and Alex and fab getaway after you graduate :)
*Heart many many to the Maia-ness

And also I can better concentrate on getting my studies going (cos then I can better stream/focus my finances on studies).
Tad frustrating, the whole thing is.

The course that I set my eyes on might not be available anymore and I kept thinking of whether to switch jobs cos I Know that I don't want to be in Production.

But Jo also pointed out that my workflow/load etc is manageable and HBO is very receptive to their staff furthering their studies.

In addition to the sponsoring, there's even Exam Leave lar.
Omg.

All I can say is..
If life gives me lemons I'm gonna make me some lemonade so we'll see I suppose.

*Urgh

So, we celebrated the end of the weekdays with a Zouk outing on Friday.
To check out their Very Poked event.

Which was quite lame with a gorgeous lame host to boot. Who I didn't get quite a good photo of.
She's really good looking.

But entertaining still.
To me, that is.

Don't know about Mai.
Hee..

We left pretty early..
Cos Mai dearest has work early the day after.

And will be back next Friday for some sessions by some guest DJs whose names Mai knows and not I.
I'm just gonna be tagging along :)

House Arrest

2008-02-25T15:20:00.002+08:00

I have so far been under self-imposed house arrest since the wisdom surgery last Thursday.

And I have become a bum.

Playing endless games, watching merry shows...
Not doing anything productive basically.

The last time I went out was Wed night with Arshad to our regular makan place at Raffles City where we discussed his relationship woes and caught up as much as we could with each other.

And before that was to catch the preview of Fool's Gold at Cineleisure on Tues.
Thanks to Nick for the free tix.

Ahh.. One of the perks of work.

Tomorrow will be my return to the office to face umcompleted edit amendments and a probably full in-tray in addition to sorting out my paperwork.
Urgh.

And also the return to NDC to remove the darn stitches from my mouth.
They're starting to smell.

The stitches this time round were kinda different though.
They stitched the wall of my mouth to the gum of the tooth beside the wisdom tooth.
Which makes me annoyed cos it makes brushing tedious.

What if the bristle from the toothbrush gets caught on the thread etc???

And I would advise that others Not use the Pearlie White Chlor-Rinse Antiseptic Mouth Rinse for it is absolutely foul.

At most, use only Once.

I told the pharmacist that I still have a bottle from my first extraction op and she insisted that I buy another again cos I'm apparently supposed to finish it.
Evil...

Mai used it once cos he probably doesn't believe that it really is as foul I claim it to be.

And now he never wants to use it again.
Heh heh..

And in the midst of house arrest, I have made some probably major decisions.

A-hah.

Dentistry

2008-02-21T12:52:00.000+08:00

For a reason of which I can't comprehend, I made my wisdom teeth extraction appointment with the dentist for 8.30AM.
What went through my mind was to get the appointment quickly over and done with after which I can then head back to work.

Not remember-ing that I would be getting an MC and wouldn't be heading to work for awhile.
-_-"

Mai was sweet enough to wake as early and accompany me to the money-sucking establishment.

So now, my mouth is officially, fully wisdom teeth-less.

This morning was the second half of my wisdom teeth extraction appointment.
Where I scared myself silly with horrific thoughts and such.

Even though I've already been there done that about 3 months ago.

I probably scared myself cos this time round my teeth was gonna be sawed into 2.

During the anaesthetia injections I was so tense and kept thinking that this was more painful than the first time.

Kept thinking of what would happen if I jerked while they were sawing and more gross thoughts along that line.

After all, my face would be covered and I wouldn't what they were doing nor what the saw looked like.
For all my imagination it could be a huge ass mean machine of a thing.

And it took really really long for the dentist to finally take it out.
After which she then said,

"Okay we're done. Eh not yet. Almost forgot. We're gonna take out the top one too right? Hold on ah.."

And so ensues the tugging and pulling of my innocent tooth.

Gah.

I was still shivering after the op while waiting for the nurse outside the op room.
And the lady beside me kept leaning forward to stare at me.

I daresay she's looney cos I might be shivering, but I wasn't shivering That badly and the way she stared was really weird.

And to make things more troublesome, the gauze I was biting into to help with the controlling of blood flow got stuck on my brackets.

In again I went to the surgery room where the surgical nurse helped me un-stuck it from the bracket.

For all that suffering, I have been awarded 5 days of MC - which includes the weekends though -_-"
And the calm knowledge that I won't ever have to face this no more!!
(:

My right jaw area has now begun swelling.
So horrid.

And I have slowly weaned myself off the meds and painkillers - never been one to advocate the consumption of meds.

Next Wed will be the follow-up appointment and the week after, monthly braces check-up with the specialist!!

So far, within only these 3, 4 months, I have invested more than $7k on dentists.
Money-suckers.

In retrospect

2008-02-18T23:44:00.028+08:00

Last Tuesday Yasmin and I planned to attend Le Baroque's 2nd anniversary do at Chjimes.

How gawdy my hair looks.
Ugh.

We hovered near the entrance for a while, contemplating if we were dressed adequately enough to enter (we were quite slack-ly dressed) and finally did only because their door fella noticed us and ushered us in after confirming our RSVP and ensuring that we took a goodie bag each.

We sat at random seats and soon after another group joined us at that table cos the rest were all reserved.
Where I was seated, it was pretty inconvenient. Cos it's the kind where if I wished to head to the ladies etc, all who were on my row of seats would have to get off theirs and make way for me.
Haha..

It was a fuss-free outing with Yasmin.
Tonnes of drinks; with me settling in comfortably with many a-Heinekens and random chit-chat with those seated with us and Douglas O. playing in the background.

Before we knew it, we were waltzing out with a balloon each and made our way to the nearby Timbre for a last drink - with Yasmin falling on her ass and the introduction of her to Danny...

And again,
before you know it, they've made plans to meet for coffee.
Haha!

I went to Timbre again come Friday for Sanjay's pseudo birthday celebration.
It was Hilarious when he and another guy (who brought an entourage up along with him) had to dance to Square Rooms by the stage.

Kaverne recorded the whole thing on her wicked awesome 10 mega-pixel cam and it is just radical.
Check it out on like Kav's and Josh's facebook.
:)

It definitely was a good start to my weekend.
Especially after a whole week of strenuous video editing.

Too think I almost couldn't make it and would thus have to miss that utterly comedic hilarity.

That Friday morning was also the solemnisation day for little sister.

I took morning half day leave from work that Friday to attend the ceremony.

I appreciated the chance to be able to wake up a tad later than usual although the half day also meant that when I head to work, I'll be facing quite a stack of work - having been holed in the edit suite the whole week and not facing my other work duties.

So here's what happened Friday morning~~

The make-up person, or Mak Andam as she is usually referred as in Malay, came over in the wee of the morning with little sister answering the door in nothing but her bra and panties (LOL!).

Loads of the groom's friends came over and there were like those thingys (that're like party (wedding?) favours) given out...
And plenty many many of photo-taking.

It was off to the grooms' place after that she-bang for food and the rushing of Radhiah and I to school and work, respectively.

The day after's ceremony was even more tiring.

It was supposed to be from 12pm til 5pm.
The Malay wedding void deck thing.

I was so pooped that I fell asleep for a good 2, 3 hours.

The meeting of many nieces and nephews and adult cousins of us who if not for Hari Raya, we'd probably never meet.

And so now they are married
And so now we have another male in the household.

Who little bro will have a smoke with.
Tsk tsk.

So young....
And already influenced.

My week ended with a post V-day trip with the love.
An awesome day out to the beach.

It was supposed to be like a picnic also lah.
But we cheated and just went to buy ready-to-eat faster and fast food :)))

So the 'picnic' was accompanied by hoegaarden, rose wine, sandwiches from Subway, Caesar salad with salmon from Coffee Bean, many Giant stuff...

... and Scrabble + playing cards!!

We travel with Scrabble

*insert exaggerated wink here

We settled down under a lovely 'tent-ed' area and stayed til after the sunset.
After which out came the sparklers and there we were contributing to air pollution as well as unintentionally littering.

*Love..

Exhaustion

2008-02-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

It has been a really, really, really busy week.

Filled with Yasmin outing, massive editing, Sanjay's hilarious surprise birthday do, the Wedding(!), and date day with Maia come Sunday.

I am officially Pooped.

Take it in

2008-02-08T00:52:00.000+08:00

Whenever I happen to take the bus from Toa Payoh to work (due to missing the coach), more often than not I'll bump into this one couple of an ang moh guy and a Filippino (?) femme.
The guy works at New Tech Park like me.

And the femme will always, always give me dagger eyes.

She seems mighty freaky as a girlfriend.
Not in terms of looks - cos she looks pretty decent - but in her behaviour.

She's totally clingy.

Won't leave the interchange til the bus her beau is in is out of sight and now, instead of just waving him off,
she took one step forward and now rides with him and sends him off at his office probably.

She keeps staring and stealing glances at me.
As though I'm such a threat or might steal the fella from her or something.
Pipsqueak's got nothing to worry about though. Ain't interested in petty-fighting with her over her beau.

I'm a tad insulted by that cos he's not the least attractive.

But also am totally amused.

The first time I had guys 'fight' over me was in Secondary school.

One guy, Ass, apparently had a crush on me since Sec 1 - when I didn't even know of his existence.
Only knew him in Sec 3.

When J and I then got together, Ass wasn't very happy because apparently, both made a pact that they'll help each other with each of their crushes and won't attempt to make a move on their individual crushes.

It was pretty flattering.. and yet annoying at the same time.
It was the reason for one of the many times J got emo/moody cos this 'defiance' of the pact (which I find utterly childish) on J's part spiralled into something more.

Our co-hort actually got divided.

Their friendship was strained, and it didn't help that they're soccer buddies and team-mates in the school soccer team.

Aplenty of those on Ass's side kept asking/telling me to leave J for Ass.
And during an inter-house soccer match it got so much worse when J accidentally kicked Ass in the thigh or something during a tackle.
You basically get the picture.

This whole thing was also one of the basis of our break-up.
It got the better of J and..
he just couldn't take it I suppose.

I'm sure plenty of femmes would be gushing, elated and flattered when guys fight over them.

But I'd rather a guy fight with himself over their partner.
Fight with himself..
Constructively.

To make compromises, change the bad/negative traits for the better, constantly wanting to ensure that the relationship keeps going well.
As I would do the same for him.

*Hearts, love..

Manifest

2008-02-05T23:57:00.000+08:00

I am addicted..
To House M.D. and Minesweeper.

And thus comes the point:

I have turned into such a geek.

Minesweeper of all things..

Hugh Laurie as Gregory House..
Thoroughly dashing.

And for a British, he manages to accomplish such a fluent American accent for the show.

And House is just another of my Tv-Series obsessions.
Before House, the list included Weeds, Gossip Girl, The Tudors, Damages.. Bla bla blaa....
*GEEK.GEEK.GEEK*

But I've always enjoyed House anyways.

Little sister has ditched the usual Cleo/Elle/Her World and have started reading Mothercare magazine.
Heh heh...

And her gullible sisters (i.e Radhiah and I) have begun splurging on clothes for the wee unborn one.

Scouring the racks of Baby Gap and throwing whatever we thought suitable into our basket.

I even bought 2 swimsuits so I can bring wee one to the pool/beach.
And we Almost bought boardpants and a short-sleeve wetsuit top. Almost.

I wasn't willing to splurge so much.

And now wee one has over 20 pieces of clothing from Gap and Radhiah also bought adorable stuff from Fox Kids.

If only I were shopping for me..

Movie time

2008-02-03T00:41:00.001+08:00

Two movies too beautiful to ignore.
First up, it's The Diving Bell and the Butterfly.

What's the story?
Well, as quoted from Yahoo! Movies:

Imagine that you're a successful and charismatic magazine editor.

You're 43 years old and have a passion for life. Then you have a stroke. Then you slip into a coma for 20 days.

When you wake up, you are mentally alert but you cannot move or speak. And this condition -- called "locked-in syndrome" -- is permanent.

Sadly, this is no fiction.
It is the fate that befell French Elle editor Jean-Dominique Bauby.

Bauby could control the movement of only one thing: his left eye. Determined to communicate, Bauby developed a code whereby his blinks came to signify letters, then words, then sentences.

This is the memoir that slowly emerged.

The cinematography is awesome and although the movie starts off slow, how the story unfolds and such is definitely worth the wait.
It has a beautiful, poignant ending.

It's not all sad and morbid though.
There Are light-hearted and hilarious bits as well.

"I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory."

It truly is amazing that this is based on an true story.

Next up eeeeeessss.....

JUNO!

It all started with a chair..

Omg the script is totally brilliant!

"You better pay for that pee-stick when you're done with it. Don't think it's yours just because you marked it with your urine!"

"Are you having boy troubles? Because I don't really approve of you dating in your (pregnant) condition. That's kind of messed up... kind of skanky. Isn't that what the girls call it these days? Skanky? You know, tore up from the floor up?"

At an ultrasound:
"Woah check out baby big head. That thing is freaky looking."
"Excuse me? I am a sacred vessel, alright? All you've got in your stomach is Taco Bell."

Gotta watch it for the funnies to come out in full effect.

Just lovely.

Redhill

2008-02-02T13:18:00.000+08:00

I thought it was gonna be another normal journey home.
Butt....

...I single-handedly got a whole train to halt service for a couple-a minutes.

Due to a Bangladeshi who went from being sprawled (and occupying) 3 seats, suddenly was sprawled on the floor and began puking fluid with brown goo in it.
*Gross-ness

Not wanting to risk any chances, I alerted the MRT driver who got his colleagues from the Redhill station to drag the Bangladeshi worker out of the train.

From the way I see it,
the Bangladeshi could either be really sick (therefore being the train drowning in his own puke would do him no good), or drunk (and thus there's a possibility that he might turn violent).

I shall not be embarrassed for wasting people's time or whatever cos I don't think I Was wasting people's time.
I felt I was being a responsible civilian instead of say taking a photo of the poor guy and posting it on Stomp or whatever.

Speaking of photos...
Here are those from the Birthday celebrations! :)

TRIPLE THREAT:
The combined celebration for Alicia, Risca and I

Kudos to Jo for the phat hats (:

*smoochies

And there's the lover

The nail-fiddling session commences!
With many a-delectable selection of colours (and glitters!) from moi

There's (almost) everyone! Hello!

Brr..

And the day after we headed to the beach!!

And the party continues

Strewn all over with the Chivas and Ruby Redddd..

Humong-o hair and all

Texas hold 'em

With shells as chips -_-"

BIRTHDAY WITH THE BEST OF LOVES:
At Clarke Quayy

Hello there :)

The purple with Anna Sui glitter blue

She who is now working with me!

The communal soup

Deb-Star

Alieyah

Rahim

Siddig

Group photo...

And an individ one with himm!

And came the presents...

A box full of goodies

Some of which included..

Panties!

Diamond earrings o_O

BOOK. Me loves you all tooo..

Monkey Bay of which they said reminded them of me. Thanks lor..

And also chocolates, sweets, Topshop and Starbucks voucher, Hoegaarden and others which are as random as you can get :)

All delirious, touched and delighted.

Then we went to get Haagen Daazzzzz...

I felt like quite the celebrity cos the manager inquired for my name from the besties just so he could address me properly by name or something.

Another group photo

Peek-a-boo

Then Yasmin joined in the fun

And we droped by MOS for a bit

Then we went out to greet Jolinee

Rahim still owes us the jumping photos.
*Roar

With plenty of love...

The reality of it.

2008-01-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

Nothing much can faze me, really.
I believe I've seen more than my fair share of ermm.. barang-barang

And everything is always regarded as stepping stones. No stumbling blocks allowed.

Out with the old and bad, in with the good and new.
It's the beginning of my life as a L.E.G.A.L

Some things a-changing.

Hellloooo gorgeous (:

And I have also finally snared my coveted phone after a semi-wild goose chase.
Frantically teleporting myself from Plaza Singapura to Vivo (thank gawd for the NEL) upon hearing that the phone was OOS and only 5 were available the last time they checked in the morning.

It was 8.30-ish P.M when I was there.

It was a good call for me to have asked about the phone before my number was called and I would have waited for nothing and Vivo would probably be closed before I could have time to react and scurry down.

Process is going as planned.
Acceptance is - has always been - key and all about being the bigger person.

Thank you.

And I've finally also got my ass down to get some facial threading done.
It hurts like shit.

And I'm gonna get me some more in due time (:

New stud, cool nails..
Solid (hopefully) plays, nostalgic movies..
Great friends.. No scratch that.

S.U.P.E.R friends.

Not everything is about flashy.
And I have what's important.

Tattoooooooo.....
(No, that's not what I'm referring to)

TwentyONE

2008-01-26T15:03:00.000+08:00

Omg the birthday was such a fabulous thing.
Thank you to all the sweethearts who did little somethings for me.

Photos will be up much later.

The combined celebration with Risca and Alicia - thanks to Jo who aided with the organisation and letting us utilise her room for the event..

The miscomm meet with the Lovely loves who gave me a boxful of goodies - only after including every single nougat did the gifts count to more than 21. Hee hee..

Yasmin who popped by and we went to MOS for a short while as she bought champagne for me and I got a goodie bag too from the bouncers and the staff who treated me like I was queen :)

Arshad, Jeffrey, even Nate and Jay...
Angela who gave me that (solid) goldie belt.

The many many people.. And even Filzah who always bothers to remember and Chong as well. It was sweet of him and I felt mean for not chatting with him longer - must do something for his birthday.

And the Maia...
La-da Da-da-di-daa.
*love you many many

Thank you for letting yourself be dragged and helping us capture the many mid-air shots we did.
<3

We were talking about the space between us all
And the people who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion
Never glimpse the truth, then it's far too late, when they pass away
We were talking about the love we all could share
When we find it, to try our best to hold it there with our love
With our love, we could save the world, if they only knew

Try to realise it's all within yourself
No one else can make you change
And to see you're really only very small
And life flows on within you and without you

We were talking about the love that's gone so cold
And the people who gain the world and lose their soul
They don't know, they can't see, are you one of them?

When you've seen beyond yourself then you may find
Peace of mind is waiting there
And the time will come when you see we're all one
And life flows on within you and without you

Psstt...
Stephanie Dosen sings it prettily.

There you go

2008-01-24T15:32:00.000+08:00

Dear Maxine,

Think of me as a bitch as you wish.

By stating that I will be indifferent whether or not you forgive me is to say that if you forgive me, that would be great but if you didn't, I wouldn't beat myself up about it.

You did state that you forgave partly to 'ease the burden on my part'.
Which made me feel that you were not really sincere about it.

Writing to you was not an attempt to make my existence be felt to you but to let you know that there is another person out there who cares even as you may detest me. Even as you hate a person it does always feel good when you know an extra person is feeling concerned for you.

I'm sorry if the email is not enough of a show of concern for you but seeing as how I don't expect you to reply any sms or call from me, an email seems to be a safer route where you can choose to throw it away, or read it through and take your time in penning a reply if you deem fit.
I wouldn't waste my time drafting letters to you if I did not feel much about it. I value the friendship we had even if my actions in the past may make it appear otherwise. It seems one mistake always overrides any good a person does.
And your thoughts towards me are already biased so of course you find me fake, a bitch and whathaveyous and whatever I do will not be seen in a good light and if scrutinized, it will be negatively.

I do respect your choice of not wishing to rekindle the friendship.
I don't stalk you nor keep forcing you to be friends or meet me again. Only the random birthday sms or note.

Rarely have I called for attention to myself because of course, I know not everything is about me.

Not everything is always about a single person or entity.

It is, however, unfortunate that because of one error you scrutinized my friendship and question my intentions of having befriended you and whatever that happened in poly and even scrutinized my past relationships (and how they came about) with biased judgements. It is unfortunate when because of one error whatever great things that became is thrown and tarnished.
I know that the error is because of me; it is just unfortunate that you chose to take that line of thought.

It's amazing how things can get twisted and complicated.

If you say you'd like to close whatever chapter that happened a year ago then I'll take it that way.
That that part of the story is getting its closure.
You can say that you've never known me all you want.

But no matter waht you may state me to be,
I will still definitely be here for you still.

No matter how fake you think I am.

I'm sure you'll take care of yourself.

~~~~~~

The part and parcel of life.
When you do something wrong whatever you do afters will still be considered wrong.
And whatever the person who was wronged does is always given a thumbs up.

Spin(ster) it

2008-01-22T16:05:00.000+08:00

I've always known that I wouldn't be the first sibling to get married.

And I've always hoped against hope that my family story wouldn't be the epitome of the current trend of Malay families or even come close.

But we are and now contribute to the growing number of young Malay couples who shotgun themselves and wed (prematurely).

It's been quite awhile now since I've known of the news and since the family had a discussion together with the in-laws.
I was initially very apprehensive and thought very little about the guy who's incubated my little sister.

She's no angel herself but she Is only 17 and a guy of his 26-years (I think) of age and maturity should know better.
Protection is available so easily and I will gladly donate condoms for their play by the gallons.

But after I calmed down,
I realise that even with this looming horrific dark cloud, there really is a bright shining light peeking out from within.

At least he is man enough to step up and take responsibility instead of running away like most other cowards would.

At least with this perhaps then my little sister who has gone astray will slowly manage to find her way back.

And as this goes on, I will definitely give my utmost support to her as will Radhiah and perhaps our bond as sisters will strenghten although there will most likely still be a blanket of hostility reserved for times when we have our outrageous sibling arguments.

No matter how much I cannot stand my Mum I will stay by home for my sisters - and brother who is currently going through the angsty phase in life.

Unfortunate as it is that only when a thing of such magnitude occurs that we realise the importance of things we take for granted.

The wedding is set for Feb 15.
And the ring bought - and that silly girl misplaced it at a shopping counter but thank god for the kind soul who returned it to City Gems (is it?).

Time to stock up on earmuffs to prep for the future wailings and also time to welcome 2 new additions to our tiny household.

At the end of one's life, no one has been known to say "I wish I spent more time in the office."

2008-01-21T23:38:00.000+08:00

Another long e-mail.

To Maxine:

It's great that you've decided to forgive me.
But it would be perfectly alright if you didn't either and in this instance, I'd rather you not have forgiven me if you feel that you are forgiving me only to 'ease the burden on my part'.

To err is human, and to forgive is divine,
but by saying it in that sense the 'forgiving' doesn't seem to be sincere, no?

What I am basically putting to words is that...

...I will definitely be able to live with myself without any burden to this matter as I have done so for the past year.

...And I'd rather be forgiven out of the sincerity of a person's heart rather than out of convenience or pity.

I admit, I do not wish to be pitied - especially when there is no need for pity. As how I mailed you recently not because of pity of your situation but out of pure concern from one being to another.

If you were to speak to me again, that's fabulous.
But if you chose not to, I'd respect that, yet honestly be indifferent still.

This is not me being ungrateful or someone who does not treasure friendship, this is me being matter-of-fact.

Khairiyah.

~~~~~~

As for relationships...
Everyone (in a relationship) will feel their love to be special and unique as said by Kelly which I find absolutely true.

Disclaimer: The mention/inclusion of Kelly is not meant with any malicious intent.

There is no contest as to whose is more unique, more special, more meaningful.
Every relationship will have the little quirks about them.

Just as you may find your love unique, so do I to mine.
Irregardless of how much damage was caused because it all plays a part in making the love unique.

After plenty of trials and tribulations, we have reached a point of consensus where I know his behavioural patterns - what makes him click, how he can be appeased, likes/dislikes...

Within the past year, I've gotten familiar with his family - including the extension who is his brother's girlfriend, Grandma, the whole paternal side and some maternal here and there and occasionally bumped into his sister's not-very-social girlfriend.

And he's met practically all of my (small) family.
From my hostile Mum - who frankly can just be ignored - to my very social and more open Dad and all the paternal and maternal aunts, uncles, cousins and nieces and nephews.

I suppose his dad regards me as part family as he always cooks and buys food for me and I am not spared from his nagging either about fruit wastage and whatnot.

Mai's friends are now my friends and mine are his too.
So much so that we're even going on a holiday together, and he can easily play soccer on a PS3 with my colleagues during one of our many fun-loving gathering.

But even with all this,
we are far from being on totally solid ground.

Because as we age and mature, learning the ropes of life..
Our values.. Opinion on things..
will definitely change and evolve in accordance to how we change and evolve as a person, an individual, over time.

And I do see myself changing here and there.
Not just physically (duh) but on every aspect, every level.

That's part of what makes a person unique and exciting, no?

That we're always ever-evolving and changing in our own special way.

A life's measure isn't about the next promotion, the bigger paycheck, the larger house, but about cultivating one's soul.

Curtis

2008-01-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

I have underestimated the appeal of Clive Owen and shall do so no longer.
He looks like a scruffy Brit at times but always he oozes massive sex appeal (and then some)

*swoons

I have received my pay increment and profit-sharing bonus letter today.

Utterly grateful for it I am.

Especially considering I have only contributed half a year's work and the many stumbles I have taken which I hope to have overcome. Confidently.

Slowly I am still moulding myself to fit in to the company and making the most of the money they are paying me.

Which partly translates to stoning and getting utterly distracted less.

But even as I attempt to better fit in and complement the company,
it still does not feel enough.

Even with the variety of workload that I do -
Co-ordinating the Content Edit scheduling, many many mediocre filing (that can Sometimes be passed on to the intern), updating of our promo spots for other department's use to co-ordinate/plan for transmission, the coveted video-editing..

It does not satisfy me still.

Maybe I'm too hard to please but I definitely know for sure that I want to do More - and that does not mean get more workload - I want to do things that can make me feel a total sense of achievement.

Completing an average of 26 cuts of 30secs each spots doesn't quite cut it apparently.

Possibly because I'm not there in front of the telly to see it on air.

But my personal handicap which I feel is refraining me from being able to do something about this is that I DO NOT HAVE A DEGREE as of yet.

As much as I know that one doesn't necessarily need a Degree to achieve their goals, I feel that it is something I should do and get and thus end the chapter of my life that is of my studies.

Which with that comes with the question of whether to opt for the company subsidy for my studies still.

The thought of being bonded stifles me so.
I detest such situations.

Coughing up with the study money by myself is gonna be a long, lonely road.
But no matter.

I'm sure things will work out well.
(See! Keeping up with the positivity)

So long as I have a clear view of my goals and actually take the steps that will bring me closer to them.

I want to do great things. To contribute to society. To touch lives.
To be an achiever.

WIGgly

2008-01-08T17:12:00.000+08:00

I have acquired a furball.
Curly, dyed and tied furball.

Now I can have an option of long and curly or short and spuky in a jiffy :D

Ahhh..
The perks.

I have saved myself the hassle of growing out my hair, putting myself in the hands of a stylist for hours on end, and endless Daily conditioning and blow-drying of my hair.

Don't think I'll get false lashies anytime soon though.
I keep imagining glue dripping into my eyes.
*Rollllll my eyes at myself

Anyway, we played with it (WIGgly, as I shall now refer to it as) that fateful Friday with great effect.

While calling and waiting for the arrival of Alicia,
I WIGgled myself here and there.

Kept taking it on and off to proudly model and show to Dom.. Alex..
Heh heh..

Even Joline (the day's) busy bee couldn't resist and took a momentary break to try it on :)

Looks like her hair is split in half.
-_-"

When Yasmin (Yay! Proper outing with her at last!) finally joined us at MS,
she wasn't spared from the introduction to WIGgly.

Nor could she resist...

Jan the man, who sells random stuff in the background in all his blurness.

Note: She is only pretending to look shy/embarrassed whathaveyou.

Glad I am that we keep in touch and attempt to meet.

Starting off having a dislike for each other - cos I was naive and believed when a friend said she was hoity-toity and quite 'action' as the term goes way, way back in school.

Maybe she was and soon became a tad better since the 'friend' is now also a pretty close gal pal of hers. Then again, I didn't really know her so I can't say.

I'm sorry for that and cos of my public disdain for her in the past,
she was quite by herself in class/school cos the rest decided not to befriend her as well but as the year progressed,

we got over our immaturity and she got out of her shell and we got on pretty swell.

Honestly,
of all the people outside my clique in TPSS, she really was the last person I thought I'd still have so much contact with and have fun together.

She's really evolved.
And has delayed rebellion. Haha!

Anyway we soon headed for Clarke Quay and when we were at Cuba Libre......
We got the guys, sans Alex, to put it on!

Lol.
I know Mai will be quite on (since I made the request. Heh heh..) and it's cool beans that Jan is quite and 'on' person.

Lemme put that on for you..

Ta-dahh! Pretty pretty..
Lol.

Appalled I was at his pose and thus commenced the training.
Here's how you should pose...

With a biiiigggg smile on your face.

Damn funny la.

And last but not least,
here is Alicia Fong warming up to WIGgly

We had much fun with it, yeah?
:)

Well, that's one of the things office people buy/do during lunch when their colleagues are busy buying hair clips I suppose.
LOL.

I've been told that I'm a whole ball of positivity by myself
But I still hope to be more and remain positive and optimistic about things from now on.

Expel all negative thoughtsss....

Don't think of something as being impossible.
Instead, envision that something and envision it becoming reality.
And you'll be one step closer to it.

Hopefully.
Gah.

It's good to be positive.
One'll be a much nicer person and nicer to and about most things.
:))

Heh heh..

Oh yes.
And Patience. Get my patience level upper and upper.

Which I doubt is that unreachable considering the things I deal with.

Heh.

Andd...
My holidays are coming!

Well, it's about 2 months away but nonetheless, holiday!

As we say,
Happy is of me :)

After finding out that I can't get a ticket for Paris from Daddy dearest - cos I'm working and only full-time students can get that - and that Radhiah and the Momma's going Switzerland this March,
my coming holiday plans....

Are getting me pretty Excited!

Even though it's only to Bangkok.
Like I said, a holiday is a holiday nonetheless :)))

And if the cards are played right,
near year-end I'll be Spain-ing around and having a snowy getaway too.
*HopeHopeHope*

BePositive.BePositive

House Party

2008-01-03T20:59:00.000+08:00

Before Mai and I left,
we spent the morning til late afternoon prep-ing and packaging of the minute gifts for them from the heart :)

Considering that I was gonna be giving generic gifts,
the plan was to create mini-pictorial 'bookmarks' for each. And include lip balm/gloss for the girlies and mini cologne for the guys.

Packaged in magazine pages.
Save the Earth and all. Hee hee..

The theme for the party was 'What you wanted to be as a kid when you grew up'.
I planned on donning a fireman's outfit but after careful consideration (of my financial status and practicality), I decided against it.
No point buying a fireman's toy hat to wear once and none again.

I sound like such a not 'on' person.

So I decided to go as a teacher with glasses and apple in hand.
-_-"

We had our own bar, sound system, cushions and rugs, mini buffet, disco lights, fluffy red stuff that looked like they escaped from a drag queen's feathered boa...
Lol.

Fun with the feathery stuff we had.

Anddd...
We also haddd.....

THE BEST COMPANY ANYONE COULD ASK FOR

<3>

The house party that fateful day was held with great success. Rolling good times it was. Making Risca up - only to have her wash it afters - distributing Baileys to many, cam-whoring shit loads, gang tau pok-ing, the dish-washing duo.. The surprise that was Adrian-o!!

Didn't think he'd be there but he CAME! :))

Oh we filled our Baileys in syringes courtesy of Gretel.
Heh heh..

This was the discovery after the party:
We now have our own 'party inventory'.
Includes bowls/plates, wine glasses, alcohol aplenty and decor many many.

The great investment by Jo.
Party ready everytime, anytime :)

With 2007 over and done with,
let's see what 2008 brings.

The New Year

2008-01-01T18:15:00.000+08:00

The New Year has come and ermmm.. still is here.

The days leading and New Years' itself was serene, yet exhilirating.
Week before New Years' we Zouk-ed quite a bit.

Mambo-ing Wednesday with Sandy and Ben.
Which sorta seemed more lie babysitting. Heh heh.
Ensuring nobody got lost as our entourage joined Sandy's cousin and friend.

They're like the epitome of expat kids.
But the exception is Sandy's real nice :)

That Friday it was for David Guetta that the group of him and his army mates plus me and Yasmin and gang came down to Zouk.

It was super packed and even the police decided to come down to join the fun.
Heh.

Yeap.
There was a check by the men in blue to ensure that the establishment wasn't flouting any rules.
Apparently they came the Wednesday before and were aghast to discover that there were more than allowed people in Phuture.

Farni is very.

The music was stopped, lights turned on and people not allowed to go in/out the establishment.
Even re-entry(s) were halted.

But after all the hoo-ha the fun and laughter resumed as though there was no pause at all.

After all these excitement and whatnot,
the Sunday was spent by the beach to unwind and get some Sun!
:)))

The scorching weather caused us to constantly be dipping in the cool sea after a few minutes of lying on our mats each time.
Burn, baby burn..

And afters,
it was lucky that we got out when we did to bathe and whatnot for rain started pouring the minute we got out the shower!

Lucky indeed.

Okay I shall blog about the New Year's house party in a wee while.
Adobe and Blog-fatigued and need to head out now!

The life given to us may be short,
but the memory of a life well-spent is eternal

There she goes

2007-12-27T19:05:00.000+08:00

Here I am blogging.
In the office.

Done with my edit amendments but unable to dump it out into the airmaster tape.
Having been told that the tape required will only be available after 7.30pm.
*Gosh

And this all has to be completed tonight cos I'm on leave tomorrow! Yay-ness

Last minute plans of dinner with Joline shelved due having to do the said dump-out.

Thus is the life.
I find the situation akin to soccer-playing.

Where soccer players chase one single ball around the field, we (producers, editors, audio mixers, the media library and engineering guys) chase after the single, and very elusive airmaster tape.

Shared and needed by all.
Quite tricky when deciding who is to use it first and to be in a spot of having to convince the other that your situation has more urgency then theirs that the tape has to be in your possession first.

Lol.

The christmas goodies still have yet to come.
By tomorrow it should reach me.
But that's okay.

Cos the gift-giving will only be on New Year's eve - where we shall have a smashing great time. :)

And the colleagues will only get the goodies when I come back next Thursday.
Heh heh.

Life's not
'like that'
. It's how you make it out to be.

How wonderful it all is.

Merry belated Kiss-Mas
*smooch*smooch*

Oh well

2007-12-24T12:46:00.000+08:00

It's great to feel like it's the school holidays again.
Sleeping so late and not caring what time it is whenever.

Going to the beach Fridayyyy...
And dinner at Chinatown for porridge that followed.

As I was at the beach, I kept thinking "here I am enjoying the sun, sand, sea while my colleagues are in the office."

*whoops

Slack.Slack.Slack

And of course, prepping X-mas gifts.
Generic ones.

Don't have that much creativity in me nor moolah to think presents through too much this year.

It is so horrendous to think of gifts for guy friends.

And Jason...
It is more blatant what the phone call was for.

To catch up,
and a few days later contact again, and ask to borrow money from me.

Of which I kindly agreed to.

The amount being from $70 to $100 - which he claims would be a better rounded figure. And the week after he asked to borrow again.

Another $100

Of course I didn't agree to that.
How am I gonna get X'Mas gifts if I keep lending off my money.

And now..
He is refusing to pay.

Avoiding calls, broken promises included.
This coming from a guy who wakes up at 8am to check if I've made the transfer.

So I asked Dom for Greg's number knowing that Jason still works for him; who says he'll talk to Jason for me - don't know how much of that is true.

Well, I Am imposing on Greg by calling him.

Jason probably had this in mind:
Khai wasn't a very good friend to Maxine and I'm friends with Maxine so it doesn't matter. I'll just call her and talk and pretend that I never talked bad about her and then borrow money. And don't pay her back. That'll teach her.
Hee hee..

Tsk tsk.
Personal gain off nothing that had to do with you.

I have yet to get anything for Mai.

Thinking of whether to get a huge one and merge it with his birthday or not.
Heh heh..
Well, I Have aided him with organizing his birthday celebration after all.
:)))

Later it is his aunt's BBQ thing-y and Paprika watching at The Cathay. As for tomorrow, there's 2 celebrations to attend.
Food.Food.Food

Long time no seeing the maternal cousins, nephews and nieces.

Like really long time.

Soon there'll be and infant in the house.
Wailing it's head off thus causing sleepless nights for me.

I shall look forward to it.

We should do the right thing - because it's Right.

New Year's party coming!